Hooi Chin Gian

Yet another sex scandal...

2011-03-25T03:33:00.001-07:00

Throughout history, sex scandals have rocked empires and more recently political careers. From the 3,000 plus (minimum) concubines of generations of Chinese emperors to the saga of the Clinton Oval Office intern scandal, men of great power have been brought to their knees with stories that are best generated from right below the waist. Sex scandals are a great threat to the morality of society, and that is exactly why they are so devastating and also bear such great damage value when used against your opposition.

This week, the de facto opposition leader of Malaysian politics, Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim was rocked with yet another sex scandal, or rather accused of it. A porno flick was released involving an actor that was claimed to be Anwar. Anwar and many of his supporters have since come forward to draw a clear line between him and the actor. In fact, he has produced pictures of the alleged star versus him. Other supporters have also come forward and expressed their faith in him.

That such a video has been leaked should not be surprising, especially in the wake of a by-election. Anwar was first alleged of sodomy around 1998, in the reign of the then 2 decade strong Prime Minister, Mahathir Mohammed. This effectively stopped his creep on the authority of Mahathir´s reign and saw him thrown behind bars for a good 7 years. The fact that the Malaysian High Court overturned this allegation about a decade later didn´t matter. Mahathir had retired from the post of PM and it was now his protégé, Abdullah Badawi´s time to lead. Anwar had been out of the political scene and that had been good for Barisan Nasional, the reigning party. However, if they could pull him out of the spotlight, they definitely couldn´t silence him. In the 2008 General Elections (GE), the opposition won a landslide victory. Even though it was short of the majority needed to form the national government, they had effectively denied BN two-thirds majority and consequently the right to change the constitution as they pleased, of the many evils possible with such a majority. This feat was in no small part due to the fact that Anwar was campaigning actively for the opposition. He had proven that the years spent in prison had not brought him down, but made him ever more so the hero.

This plot shouldn´t come as a shocker, for it is neither the first nor the last of such allegations to smear the image of the opposition. Indeed, this is in succession with a long line of opposition-smearing campaigns, such as another allegation of sodomy against Anwar by an ex-aide. Such acts could very well be disastrous, but if managed well, they can also be used to expose the tactics that BN is using to stay in power. And the harder they try, the more obvious it becomes that Anwar is becoming a stronger threat, in line with the support he is garnering for the opposition. After all, this is just a reaction to his surge of popularity. In fact, we should brace ourselves for more scandalous claims as the GE draws closer, for the stakes are high and the bets are being placed now.

Manifest Destiny

2010-04-24T10:17:00.001-07:00

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Essay 2

What was "Manifest Destiny?" Three excellent historians, Anders Stephanson ( Major Problems, p. 206), Frederick Merk (Merk in "Course Documents"), and Thomas Heitala (Major Problems, p. 213) argue very different interpretations and explanations. Briefly explain the view of all three authors. Was "Manifest Destiny" primarily a short-term manifestation of a long-term ideology, a temporary messianic impulse, a cynical political plan, or some combination of the two or three of the above? In a short (3-4 page, double spaced) essay, attempt to explain the age of "Manifest Destiny" in the 1840s.

Manifest destiny was interpreted quite literally. The expansion towards the entire North American continent and to a certain extent even the Western Hemisphere, was obviously an extension of the perfect union built on liberty and federated governance. It was fated that these lands would come into possession of superior Anglo-Saxons who even had God on their side, but politics at the back of their minds.

Anders Stephanson, Frederick Merk and Thomas Hietala all agreed that the hand of God was perceived to have played a role in the land-grabbing excitement of the 1840's. O' Sullivan, an editor of two influential and original papers, the New York Morning News and the Democratic Review, would coin the fundamental belief that "the nation of many nations is destined to manifest to mankind the excellence of divine principle; to establish on earth the noblest temple ever dedicated to the worship of the Most High-the Sacred and the True." Such was the view shared by expansionists. As the idea gained popular support in the South, which was stoically conservative and religious, it made sense, intellectually and economically, to conjure a "messianic imagery" out of the concept of manifest destiny, as Hietala put it. After all, the politicians and political commentators understood that having God on their side not only made for a good justification to their cause, as it was indeed, as Stephanson argued, "the highest stage of history, God's plan incarnate". In fact, it also solidified the resolve and support of the South when they did execute their plans. After all, how could a Southerner not support a Democratic game plan that bore God's stamp of approval and when it was clear that the only thing they had to do was, according to Stephanson, the "administration of things and vigilant preservation of the sacred Origin." Numerous claims by Southern congressmen and Southern intellectual which included biblical terms when addressing this issue, such as Providence, Israelites and Ararat in Merk's text,
would only solidify this conclusion. In fact, argued Stephanson, even rationale and logic could be reconciled in God's working by "natural theology". It was only geographically rational that Oregon, Texas, New Mexico and California were possession of the United States, for truly they belonged to the North American continent and no "natural border" could be better invoked than when the land that was rightfully American ran into the open seas. Truly such marvelous geographical engineering had to be maneuvered by Him and Him alone.

The implementation of Manifest Destiny as foreign policy spoke volumes about America and how it viewed itself. To begin with, the fact that America was ready to take on the British on the 54 ̊40' parallel or fight demonstrated a self-believe that it was equal if not greater than the British. American diplomacy was starting to show signs of coming of age and a big part of this maturity and self-confidence was fueled by the belief that the American form of government was superior to the enslaving monarchial rule of Europe and its colonies, hence it was worth exporting. In fact, according to Hietala, the world's progress hinged upon American progress and the European oligarchs were doing their own people a gross injustice by discouraging the expansion of the United States. It was the core belief of Jacksonians and expansionists that the law of "American progress" was a natural law that would go on indefinitely and had to be obeyed much like the law of gravity, as Merk pointed out. Hence, the expansionists were just playing their role in the bigger picture of US progress by enforcing manifest destiny. After all, who were they to question or even stop the momentum of so inherently noble a movement as the one that posed America as "the city on a hill"? A more cynical view taken by the Whigs and critics of this movement, as illustrated by Hietala, was that the both the Tyler and Polk administrations were being hypocritical and imperial by pushing the Mexican government around but retreating on the Oregon issue with the British. The distinction was clear: Britain was strong and Mexico was weak; America came somewhere in between and Polk would obviously choose to pick on the weaker ones as opposed to someone stronger or of equal strength, depending on perspective. Overtures of imperialism were hurled at the Democrats and expansionists, even though the Democrats were specific to draw the line between their conquests and the European conquests as theirs being one of enlightenment and natural order. The choice of attitudes towards two different opponents of polarizing strength demonstrated the Polk administration's real theme for expansion.

Expansionists such as O' Sullivan were generally Jacksonians who believed in expansion as the solution to a slew of the nation's problems. In a twisted manner, Jacksonians also believed in subduing abolitionist cries and movements. Embedded in this not-oft mentioned principle was a tinge of racial superiority, or more explicitly, white supremacy. Throughout Stephanson's text, it was apparent that social Darwinism played a big role in O' Sullivan's definition of the interactions between white settlers and everyone else of color. O' Sullivan's beliefs' that the Mexican vote would be substantially below the national average in terms of intelligence and purity motivated him to call for commercial means by the "northern race" to instill in the Mexicans "confidence and respect for our institutions"; as clearly "the degraded Mexican-Spanish" were in no state to receive the "virtues of the Anglo-Saxon race." O'Sullivan was not alone in this opinion as the great poet and editor of the Democratic Brooklyn Eagle, Walt Whitman, as coined by Stephanson, had found "miserable and inefficient Mexico" totally incompatible "with the great mission of peopling the New World with a noble race." So radical and racially chauvinistic were O' Sullivan's views, and undoubtedly most Jacksonian Democrats' views, that he had no qualms whatsoever in calling for "homogeneity" as the top factor to take into account in empire building, refusing to allow "dissimilar and hostile materials" to chip away and crumble the temple of homogenous bigots. Back in the 1840's, this underlying unfavorable view of anyone of color was accepted as a societal norm, explicitly by slave-owning Democrats and implicitly by pro-abolition Whigs. Manifest destiny was another way to exert the white supremacy over other inferior races and ethnic groups as they could use some enlightenment in their government and life in general. Expansion was yet another way to relieve the white man of his burden to elevate other lesser races.

As the essay proceeds, the glow of manifest destiny as a glorious Westward movement to serve the Union and the needs of her free citizens diminishes more and more. Frederick Merk further dampens the mood on the bright and sunny outlook. Merk argues that Francis P. Blair, the editor of the Washington Globe, declared that the treaty by Tyler to annex Texas was written with defeat in mind as a calculated result, so as to serve the Calhoun secession movement. The Democrats, argued Merck, stood on no higher moral grounds. They would drop Tyler and Van Buren for their presidential nominees and choose the militantly expansionist, Polk as their nominee. In fact, they would go on to market Polk as "Young Hickory", in an attempt to link him with the perceived need for youth as the preeminent reform catalyst towards continentalism and beyond. The Whigs would move to kill the Tyler treaty at the eve of Polk's presidency while Tyler and consequently Polk would conjure foreign devils out of thin air to summon nationalistic pride in attempts to annex Texas. Much as Merk would argue, manifest destiny was yet another sparring ring for both political parties, just like slavery and health care reform would be for subsequent generations of politicians. Time and age might pass, but the essence of political dueling would remain a constant, even for the great task of expanding the Union's land mass.

Even though other themes resonated with manifest destiny, such as the ripe political situation and technological advancement as well as economic incentives, the ones mentioned above dominated the motifs and drive behind continentalism and beyond. Hietala summarizes that the concept of manifest destiny is often glossed over "to reconcile American imperialism with an extremely favorable national image." However, if the ends justify the means, and modern-day citizens of the thirty seven states which were not part of the original thirteen in the union would probably agree, that as much as manifest destiny was flawed, it was a necessary evil.

References

Stephanson, Anders. Major Problems in American Foreign Relations, The Ideology and Spirit of Manifest Destiny, p. 206.
Merk, Frederick.
Heitala, Thomas. Major Problems in American Foreign Relations, Empire by Design, Not Destiny, p. 213.

TIMING

2010-02-20T20:56:00.001-08:00

So what do you do when you find out that the castle you build is about to go into tatters? FML.

So the idea was that this is about timing. And I kinda tried to take timing into account and do it all in at a slow pace. But the train had to hit me in the face. Or me ram into the wall, wateva…. LOL. The truth came sweeping out, sweeping me off my feet like an undercurrent. Yea, she knew the truth already, so…. What I do? Deny? Or go with the flow??

GO SLOW apparently IS the right advice. Go with the flow man. Everything has its timing. When it's here, it's here. When it's urs, it's urs! : ) If it ain't just keep going at it, dun give up, dun push too hard either. Try pulling, then mayb lady luck might follow along… : )

Child Porn

2010-01-16T19:59:00.001-08:00

Warning: Viewer Discretion Advised

So I was stopping over at Narita Airport, Tokyo. Decided to go out for a tour of the city since I had a whole 13 hours to wait for the connecting flight.

I was walking, walking, walking. Lo and behold, guess what I saw? Yes, the blog title gives it away.

There were DVDs and magazines specifically dedicated to girls as young as 11 years old who were paraded in bikinis and posing in suggestive poses. No, they were not naked, but yes their pose would have sent off the message intended to any adult.

To think that Japan, one of the most advanced countries in the world and Asia had such a loophole in their laws to allow their very own leaders of the future to be paraded in such a shameful manner was disgraceful. I couldn't even believe my eyes when I saw the DVDs among all the adult contents. Ok, to say that the Japanese porn industry is creative in its contents is an understatement, but this? UNACCEPTABLE!

Whatever happened to the child's consent? Whatever happened to not exploiting children who can barely take care of themselves? Whatever happened to basic civility?

It may be true that they are not naked and that may very well be within the laws of Japan, but ponder on this: You put a child in a bikini, ask her to parade and psoe in suggestive poses and put her pictures in such a context, what less of a response could you expect? What market could you possibly be targeting? The children who want to buy bikinis or have their eyes set on modeling?

I thought the South East Asian child sex industry was bad, but under our very noses, we have the Asia's largest economy being a haven for pedophiles. Maybe all the bowing and thank you's are just a cover for the perverted thoughts that do not let go of any chance at preying, not even if the prey is their young!

Dedicated to YOU

2009-10-19T17:01:00.001-07:00

You know sometimes you just do something and people just keep discouraging you? No, it won't work. No, it's not a good idea. With good intention sometimes, but it just rubs you the wrong way?

You know what hurts the most? When they are some of the closest to you, that rubs the wrong way, and deep too…

Call me immature, call me baby-faced. It just hurts. Seriously.

Human Touch

2009-10-16T23:12:00.001-07:00

They say the internet's most popular use is to search for porn.

They say prostitution is one of the oldest form of business.

"The savage (man) desires only food, sexual satisfaction and sleep…" –Jean-Jacques Rousseau

For when you live on your own and operate as a full blown individual with no real social or familial pressures to be who society thinks you should be, you find out what loneliness means. You realize that machines and technology with all their wonders cannot replace the warmth of human touch. You realize that given all the riches and knowledge in the world, it can get pretty lonely at the top.

A kiss, a hug and just that warmth of human touch…

Now wouldn't it be great if we were not held back by the norms of society? That we were just free to do what the heck our hearts desired? If only…

Varsity Internship Program – Summer 2009

2009-09-16T14:03:00.001-07:00

The goal of Week 0 out selling, realistically, was to find out how well the rubber met the road, where sales and business theory was coupled with practical! There was no real quota to meet as I was the "new kid on the block", but I was pretty sure about one thing: I wanted to be number one rookie! The most interesting things I faced on the first week came late at night, at about 9.00 pm for two evenings. Once, I was calling on a big house that was a referral. Lo and behold I was mistaken for a male stripper! They knew I wasn't one, but they asked me to play along anyway as the bachelorette party was getting way too boring! I played along and it was fun, but I didn't get to even demonstrate my books or do any sales talk. The lesson was: they were not in a buying mood. Secondly, I was at a customer's house when they had to leave as they were a volunteer medical relief team, and it so happened that I left my pre-approach pad in their house. Now, the pad was our everything for us, door-to-door salesman, as we had all the referral's details on it. As expected, the customer probably saw all the information about himself in my pad and wasn't very happy about it. When I returned the next day, he gave me my pad and asked me to leave. Lesson number two: never let the customer know the inner workings of your business!

I learnt that folks from the South are really hospitable, but there are always a few sour apples here and there. Nonetheless, people from the South did leave a good impression on me! One of the extreme examples that struck me hard though was a sticker a homeowner put on his door: "Owner does not call 911, owns shotgun and uses it." No doubt I left straight away! I also quickly realized in Week 0 the power of statistics and how it just works out fine each time when you hit the right sales quota. In other words, when you get a good day, you are just flying on cloud nine! One thing I did pick up quick too was to drive and move fast, as time was money, literally. This would be a trait transferrable to every job thereafter. Finally, when at doubt, keep pushing and never give up!

In Week 1, I learnt to accept no for an answer. It was a quick change of thoughts that helped put everything into perspective. I was to accept all the objections from calls as a training ground for acceptance of obstacles and challenges. No was just fine an answer, for you can have some of your way all the time or you could have all your way some of the time but you can't have all your way all the time! I set out to achieve a very high goal, but I was quickly brought back down to earth by daily sales performances. Indeed, it is the hardest to get the ball rolling. But when the ball rolls, you cannot stop it! Similarly, getting myself to really start the day and week off was painstakingly hard, but once the first demo of the day was done, I was ready and the stage was all mine!

In fact, I really love the objections now, for it prepares me for a future in business, where according to Robert Kiyosaki, founder of the Rich Dad Poor Dad company, the first 3-5 years in a business will be fruitless labor. So indeed, objections, refusals and even ridicule will be rife in my future and here I am learning all about how to deal with them and take no as an answer. The secret formula was to move on to the next door, for faith in my product will truly bring me to someone who will appreciate it. Quit not, for the light at the end of the tunnel can be seen and is not too far away. If things don't work out, changing methods will ensure that even NO can be converted to ON!

Week 2 was beginning to get tougher and tougher, as I was in my second town already, Logansport, LA, as I had not done well in the first town, Mansfield, LA. That translated into me not being the top rookie as I had hoped for, and another girl was on top. However, this week, I learnt to not give up. This may sound like a cliché, and it really is oft quoted, but this week I really learnt how hard it was to just keep at it. Just knocking on door after door after door in the hot sun and getting multiple objections thrown into your face was more than enough to make the strongest man break down! I could already anticipate how they were going to object, be it time, finances or just plain lack of interest! Sometimes, I even wanted to just give up as so many No's had been thrown my way! Lo and behold, I hung in there. As they say, practice makes perfect! I could already recite my sales talk without even thinking about it. This was pretty amazing, no matter whether people were buying.

In fact, if things don't work out, I learnt that it's probably time for a change, be it attitude or method. Hang in there till the end, for the finisher is a winner!

Week 3 taught me an extremely important topic, record keeping! I was short of almost $600 after a week's worth of accounting backlog. We were supposed to do accounting like expenses and book sales daily, but I left it till Saturday night to complete it. Lo and behold, I figured out it was a miscalculation and found out where the money was, but that was not before hours of worrying! I also learnt to stay ahead of the game by planning ahead. Thinking big also helped a lot! Think big! I really loved the one night when I sold my first set of books. It was the last house for the day, I was tired and it was dark and raining. I pushed on anyways and did not expect much from that house. However, she began to show genuine interest and I was excited. I showed her every book as she was the last customer anyway. When I told her the price, she did not seem shocked or appalled, but she did ask one question, is it alright if I pay half by cash? It was the best moment of the summer!

In week 4, I got an insight into the power of self-persuasion. I was on the verge of letting it all go on Wednesday. It was a hot day and almost a zero book day! But two things kept me going; the first was the amount of checks that I was holding until November for them to be cashed and also the unbearable idea of quitting on myself. I asked myself, what was I to do if I didn't sell books this summer/ I had got me a car, convinced my mum to let me stay in the States and also taken on this commitment to hang on till the end. In fact, this commitment had been made with "Coach" Roddy Dye, he pulled me aside and looked into my eyes, and told me that I had it in me to make it, but I had to hang in there. Besides, where else would I go and what else would I do? Go home and relax? Tempting, but no thanks! I mean, even if I failed in numbers, at least I learnt to take fear and objection in the face and still stand up and keep walking! Yes I can! Self-motivation and a self-belief that I could finish was vital, and going back to basics was important too as I was in a new territory from Wednesday, Coushatta, LA. In fact, I would come to realize that sustainability was key to this business, so I had to keep asking for pre-approach, and keep the ball rolling! Yes I can!

Week 5 proved to be an eventful week of ups and downs. The first biggest lesson was that change is inevitable, it may not be what we expect or are comfortable with, but change will and must come, especially if the status quo doesn't work. I had to change places to go to, or even change myself, maybe I was pushing too hard, or maybe I was being too desperate. Two, through people's grace we thrive, as in this book business and even life. The biggest lesson though, was that it's not so much what you know, but more so who you know, literally. This was especially true for referrals, as I introduced myself and started to mention names of friends and family, I could get into the house and close a sales comparatively easily. Another thing I learnt was that when you're down and out, count your blessings, every single one, or more literally, every single book.

In fact, I learnt to not try too hard, especially when I smiled too hard, people can feel the fakeness and despise that salesman smile! Good places, work tight, bad places, work through. Most importantly, I learnt to enjoy the customers and try to find and fill in their needs. If what they wanted was what you have, then I would do well!

Humility was learnt in Week 6. That sometimes, it isn't about me. Sometimes, I can do my best and still not have anything back in return. When I got to the part of being able to tell who would get some books, and who wouldn't get any, I began to pre-judge my customers. There was this "someone" that I thought would not buy anything. But then again, "someone" actually bought something and that really shocked me! It was really a lesson of humility, that sometimes a book cannot be judged by its cover, and a person can't be judged by looks. The other lesson, which is the best one to date, is that the reason that I did well for the last two weeks was because of referrals. I knew that the next week could continue to be good if I kept the referrals going. The other value of friendship was also learnt today, as friends, or rather comrades are the ones who make the day great and all worth it! The most important lesson, though, was that I learnt to thrive under intense pressure and still do well. For that, I ended the week deciding to live on one motto: Play to Win!

One lesson that held true even through Week 7 was once again change. When things were going low and slow, I had to have a strategy. When people weren't buying whole sets of books but rather single books, I had to sell to more folks. When the going gets tough and no books had been sold and the weather was hot, I drank more water, stayed calm and cool and kept going and failing until I succeeded. In this job, I figured, a thirty percent success rate was pretty good. But one thing I had to keep reminding myself about is that there is a prancing horse in me, so every moment should be played to win. To play to win is the goal. Hence, if things do not go as planned, it is to be changed, either the game strategy or the location. But one thing remains, that whether the person will is already set, so all I have to do is show the books and if they will buy, they eventually will. This determinism somehow gave me some calm and peace.

For week 8, I gained a new philosophy, never let people tell you No. This seems to contradict what I had written above, but this comes from another perspective. This week was rather slow as I let people coax me into believing that I had run out of prospects to look for. However, when I had moved on into new territory, it was even worse as I had to start from scratch as I knew nobody in the new area. Long story short, the numbers just dropped and I learnt to never let people tell you that something is not possible. This was because I went back to Coushatta, LA on Saturday and found that I had completely ignored a whole highway worth of folks that I could approach as people had mentioned that there was nobody living down there. At least try it and then make the judgment for yourself. Besides, I learnt to stick by myself when times get bad, which is very important. As the last 4 weeks of the internship unfolds, I'll have to look out to end strong. As we move on, it is important that we keep the momentum going, so that the end will be beautiful, very, very beautiful! I truly understood that there was a simpler way of life, but it could be so much more beautiful!

Boy, was Week 9 an eventful week! I had a car wreck, bottoms up, literally! I was going down about 40-50 mph down a gravel road and I started to lose traction. My steering wheels began to shake and panic set in pretty quickly. My first response was to step down on the brakes, hard! Bad decision it was. The next thing that happened was that my steering wheel shoke uncontrollably and I lost even more control of my vehicle. The alignment of the car had been veering to the right all along, so the car swerved to the right and I went up a dirt shoulder with my right wheels at a good 20-30 mph. I remembered this whole experience flashing by in two seconds or less and the next thing I knew the car was tipped to the left and the whole car overturned! I was upside down in less than two seconds and had to unwind the windows to climb out. I sure was lucky to walk away unscathed! My vehicle ended up claiming a total loss but I was safe and sound.

I used to read in books that accounting is a very important aspect in business. I believed it but never knew how important it was exactly, just like you know that the pot is hot, but you don't know what hot is until you touch the pot. As of Week 10, I had a discrepancy of $2000 in the account, which is a pretty big amount, considering the size of the business! Right then and there, I finally understood that money is hard to earn and even harder to keep (track of as well as just keep), but very easy to just spend! The tenth week was an eventful one, not my best, but I was understanding what I was doing finally and I felt calm and serene, as I'd come to terms with myself.

Week 11 was a wonderful week. As little books as I had sold, everyday had been a blessing, especially Saturday. The most memorable thing in this job is not how many books I have sold. Sure, that's important, but it will hold no significance once I get back onto the mainstream of life. But what will stick in mind is how many people's life I have touched and blessed too. Seeing their face light up when upon my arrival is worth the ten doors slammed in my face! If money makes the world spin, love keeps the world on its axis. Saturday, I was hugged and welcomed by an elderly black couple, just like my own grandparents would have, no color and no creed. It was a simple gesture, but the old man offered t make coffee, the catch was that I had to wait fifteen minutes for it to brew. It was "money time" on Saturday evening at 7.30 pm. To go or to stay? He was 83 and I wouldn't be back anytime soon. Stay. Man it was the most meaningful 15 minutes if the summer, simple as it was, conversation while the coffee brewed.

A lot of folks decided to go easy on Week 12, as there would be no more Vision and no more goals or next week to build for. However, I looked at it as my last opportunity to catch the people I had not catch and dedicate all my money earned to my mum. I was supercharged! On average I drove 200 miles minimum every day, just to catch everyone within my parish, Coushatta, LA. It was worth it, as I knew the roads and the people and I managed to hit President's Club, of $4000 sales. The summer ended on a high note indeed, with a purse bible being sold on my last day, I was ecstatic on Friday night, it was party time, I was done!

I look back 12 weeks before and at myself currently, and indeed I have matured. I know how to read body language better, I have a more positive outlook on life which also takes a certain deterministic conclusion, that all things can be done, it's only a matter of time. In fact, I gained a lot of confidence, as here I was a foreigner or ALIEN as I am called, being able to make it on my own and having sold bibles door to door. Indeed, I have no regrets and do not ask myself what if. I have done my best and I know I can be better.

OBSERVATIONS

2009-09-02T10:51:00.001-07:00

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT A RACIST BLOG, JUST A POST OF OBSERVATIONS. IF YOU ARE EASILY OFFENDED, GO AWAY. THIS POST IS NOT FOR YOU, AND WAS NEVER EVER MEANT TO BE OR EVEN SEEM RACIST!

So this is the first time I have such an urge to blog! Must blog! Never before feeling lol!

Anyways, have been observing this for couple times d, today confirmed this lol.

Asian girls in America, my school at least, suck up way to white guys, literally. May not be politically correct, but its fact! Especially Indian girls, lol. Then again, sometimes, I wonder if I’m guilty of sucking up to white folks too. HMM…

And yes, white girls also have an issue with asian guys apparently, or rather as long as its not yet another white guy, its not a guy worth having. So it dun sound right, but the bottom line is, most white chicks go for white guys. Observation. Cause many a times I’ve seen white guys with girls and I go like, I can do better than him, but they just dun seem to care bout me. Apparently I’m of the wrong color. XD

One more thing, I realized when I went clubbing, the black folks partied among themselves, and the whites with whites. Hmm… even in clubs interracial mixing is still kinda taboo apparently! XD let alone an asian who is a super minority.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT…

Lost

2009-08-26T20:17:00.001-07:00

So what happens when you loose something so peripheral yet so important? Like your phone? Like your deodorant? Or a blog address?

Felt so damn bad for like two friggin weeks, looked all over the place for it, got even worse and felt no better! Almost gave up on looking, but thank God I decided to keep looking today!

Guess what?

Found it!!!! : )

I'm back!

Loner

2009-05-14T21:42:00.001-07:00

It's official, I'm a loner. Took me 20 years to figure that out. No this is not a pitiful post directed at garnering sympathy. It's official, since I just realized it.

I work most efficiently when I am alone. I was once at a Boeing career seminar about how to get hired at Boeing and this guy asked: "So how many of you like to work alone?" I proudly raised ma hands and he shot it down pretty quickly. "This is one of the questions that you don't answer honestly even if you are!" I did not give a shit, but I was pretty surprised about ma answer too.

In engineering teams, I could tolerate quite a lot, but I always had a slight frustration and impatience for people who weren't quite as self-motivational and quick to pick up. I know, you can only go so far alone, but going there with a bunch of slower folks ain't exactly getting you anywhere far either, no.

Then again, I realize that I work well with people who are fast, smart and better than I am. Once they have proven themselves to be as good as, if not better, than me, I will follow and cooperate. But before that, mediocrity is very much a blunder to smooth and frictionless cooperation. I worked well with the 3 sergeants in command. I worked well with Freddie, who showed me the ropes to diplomacy. I worked well with Monica in the Math conference. They were stellar folks with meritious skills.

Indeed, I am also very much a non-supporter of small talk and fooling around. I am not at all interested in talk that is just too aunty and frivolous. I am capable of small talk, but find it just too much a waste of time and very uninteresting. But then again, they say that's how human relationships are built, by focusing on the small details in life. Well, that's where I fail I guess. Cause I don't give a shit about small things in life, like the friends I could be missing with the lack of attention given to small talk and all that crap. Couldn't be bothered much. It's lonely sometimes, yea, but I just can't be bothered. Unless she/he is worth my time and attention. Then again, I ain't worth their time too, that's why they also dun give a shit about making small talk with me. Ha.

So yea, I'm a loner, when all else are not up to par, I guess.

Choices – Due to patpular request.

2009-05-07T16:21:00.001-07:00

Obama mentioned not once but several times, that he will make them tough decisions, something that you do realize that Bush never mentioned. Maybe it was a smart rhetoric choice on Obama's part, but more likely it was a policy choice, that hard decisions had and will still have to be made.

Essentially, why I really like Obama is cause his grounded. His not like the fly high Hollywood dreamy star-glazed eyes dreamer, he is the grounded in reality yet hope and dream giver. And he resembles the life that is sensible and good, and maybe I should get back to the topic.

Its ma first summer here and I chose to stay in the States. Not because I don't miss ma friends and family, I do. When I go back, I will go down tampin la, and eat all the good shit back home and proly go down batu pahat to see the wall paintings ONLY too! (mind you, only to see the cool wall paintings! Lol)

Anyway, one of the main choices I had to make: to stay here or to go home during summer? I wanted to take courses, but found out summer fees are higher so screw it. class quality also not so high cause its more cramped n teachers are more limited in choices to choose from. Another thing was also that I wouldn't have nothing to do at home sides party, dine, wine, beer, lots of it!!! but no much work and no much learning to do. I wanted to be pushed beyond my comfortable zone, yet I missed all things that are home. But I decide to stay here la, cause one, ma sis's friend introduced a book selling program, could learn some important skills in sales! Can also earn some money and finally can see the southern part of America! O and the great group of people too! So far so good, finally sleeping in a real bed in a real house lol! Sorry la, school dorm sucks, ma friends couch that I slept on since leaving school sucks even more! Ma sheets smell of the smoke lingering in his living room that I slept in for a week. Ma boss in this sales program asked me come over early so I agree lo, and now here I am in a very cool and nice house! Lool!

The other choice I'm thinking bout? To study masters anot? Brains, sorry la not to be cocky but I know im definitely above average even in the top 5-10% la among peoples. But what bout the money? Probably get some scholarship lo when I graduate with minimum 3.95 gpa. And wanna get into ivy league school too since undergrad no famous school lol. And then wanna do wat subject? Econs? Kinda interested. Or still aerospace eng? Since this is ma field of expertise and interest that I wanna choose lol.

One thing im also working on is a rat race exit strategy which is something that I work on to get away from the rat race which is live from paycheck to paycheck. So basically I need to get enough cashflow from, passive income to sustain ma lifestyle and then go do whateva I wanna do lo lol. But im an engineer wo, so I do need to work with some big firm to get some experience, or as ma prof said, make some mistakes on peoples time. Lol. And then again, big form proly means American or western firm, cause that's where the tech is lol. So will they hire me also? First time in ma life that I figured that damn, cause Americans are born Americans, they are more hirable than me, even tho I work harder and am proly smarter, not the smartest duh, I may not be hired over them cause I ain no American, literally.

So the other reason I came here is also for the creativity, fun and freedom, things that have come to define the modern world today. Yea china is up and coming, but America still makes the 21^st century rules and it is the defining factor for standards. So in the process of learning from the best, I constantly have to make the choice; stay Asian or be more American? Have more fun or study more? Be more free and easy, or rigid and upright? Home people say u so American, come here they say u so Asian, paradox of life. Listen hip-hop and make afro or just wear caps and keep long hair?

Engineer? Entrepreneur? One is book-smart, the other is street-smart. One wanna be smarter than others, the other wanna hire smarter people than others. One builds stuff, the other builds business empirez. To work alone or build strong teams?

Business or politics? One to build ma own stuff, the other to inherit and influence a broken and faulty system.

Some choices have been made recently:

Stay

Study masters in ivy leagues school on scholarship money.

Build engineering business

Business. Politics can wait.

Kalau bukan untuk rakyat, untuk apa?

2009-04-06T15:50:00.001-07:00

Before you read on, listen to this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4eRApNHSRRk

WARNING!

Do not proceed without first listening to this song!

I had a burning question leaving Malaysia to come to the States. If people don't become politicians for the people, why do they do it? Politicians who sit in their palaces come out and campaign every five years, handing out to the people sweets and candies, promising new roads and schools, only when elections come by. And once they have won, they retreat to their forts, forgetting all that had been said and done. How could they do this? They draft policy after policy, promising new stimulus packages and ways to solve decades old problems; they promise to bring up their race at the expense of the rich, but the rich get richer and the poor still live in the ghettos. WHAT THE FUCK?

I'm about to move off-campus. On-campus housing was amazing, air-conditioning is supposed to be on 24-7, dehumidifier, they say. Electricity can run 24-7 too, as the rent includes everything. It's very luxurious, I have to admit. Now that I'm free to look for optional housing, I was offered a room in a three-bedroom apartment with my friend, so off we went to see the place. Man, were my eyes opened! Holly Hills was the place. That name raised my friends' eyebrows when I asked them about it. Ghetto was their best description of it. I quickly found out that this was the real America, not Hollywood America. Closed-down factories existed, rusted cars were around there and you could literally see kids running around with nothing to do.

Playback to Malaysia, I once saw a video which literally showed how poor people in Malaysia are. No government loans for small business as promised; orang aslis were not Bumiputera enough; no one gave a shit to locals in Pulau Pangkor about what development was good for the place until Dr. Mahathir came around for a visit.

Just go to the East coast for a ride and see how far behind they are compared to Kuala Lumpur, Johor Bahru, Penang and you'll get an answer as to whether our people in office care about us. Hence, my question. Kalau bukan untuk rakyat, untuk apa? (If not for the people, for what?)

For power, as absolute as it gets.

For money, as much as possible.

For ideology that no one but you bastards up there care about.

For a difference in color, race, beliefs and religion that you keep bastardizing.

That's what it's for.

I had a refreshing talk with my friend, Adam yesterday. He's a Christian who loves God. He mentioned that he wants to be as far away from these dirty, slimy and corrupted little politicians as possible. However, he feels it compelling to go into this dirty world and wet his feet for if he doesn't do it right, who will?

That's why people should run. Not because of the many GOOD reasons above! No not even because YOU want to be the prime minister! Now don't let them get off the hook that easily! They are public servants, not private officials who are only accountable for themselves and their cronies!

So people, VOTE! Know that every vote is important. When you turn 21, please, please, PLEASE register to vote. Don't wait for the general election fever to come about then only register, because it will be chaotic and a lot of things can and will happen. Keep yourself informed and vote for what you believe in. Never let them forget that it is YOU they are serving. YOU are the boss, not them in their suits and ties in Putrajaya or even in Bukit Aman! Let them know that with your votes!

China’s Rise and the Challenges it Poses to the World.

2009-03-28T07:28:00.001-07:00

TOPIC: The explosion of export production in China has defined that country's rapid economic growth. It has also led to some serious side-effects, such as intense environmental degradation, dramatically increasing pressure on the world's supply of fossil fuels, enormous trade imbalances with the West, etc. What do you consider to be the most pressing global challenge posed by China's rapid rise, and what leverage do you feel other nations of the world could/should exercise (or not) to reduce the impact of this particular challenge?

Being of Chinese descent has never been such a big deal as is the case in the 21^st century. The economy of China was booming at double digit growth rates and constantly running budget surpluses of billions of dollars. "Europe, that speck on the horizon, is (being) ignored: an EU summit was cancelled and France is still blacklisted because Nicolas Sarkozy dared to meet the Dalai Lama. (Economist How)" In fact, anti-Chinese sentiments were never as strong as in February 2009 when the Chinese Premier, Wen Jiabao had a shoe thrown at him in Cambridge University, always an indicator that the "recipient" is the representative of a formidable and threatening force. In all sense, the millions of Chinese living outside China, significant in their numbers as shown by the Chinatowns across the world, feel a surge of pride when China does well, for it is where they draw their roots from.

The most significant amount of limelight has been shone upon China's economic performance. 300 million people have been snagged from the jaws of poverty and raised into the working middle class by the Communist Party led government with a capitalistic free market economy (Koppel). From 2003 to 2007, real GDP growth was 11 percent; real domestic demand growth was 9.9 percent; the inflation monster was chained down to a mere 2.6 percent and China inched its way up slowly from eleventh largest economy in 1980 when it first opened up its doors to foreign trade to become the third largest economy in 2007 (Factsheet). The world has been amazed by its steady growth but as always, negative attention is never too far away from the glitz and glamour of a success story. Much has been said about China's handling of human rights issues, its demand on the world's resources and the role it plays in the global race towards a dirtier tomorrow. However, the most pressing complication that China poses to the world is it's unsettling of the United States of America from its crown throne at number one in economy and in geo-politics.

After winning World War Two, America was in great economic standing relative to the rest of the world. Europe was in debt with America and had to rebuild itself from the war that had been fought on its land. Meanwhile, America had made a handsome sum of money from selling war machines and products to Europe, while pumping their economy with the US dollar in exchange for gold (Maloney). In fact, the world was ready for America to lead. America's economy would boom and lead it to become a superpower in the world, not only because it had effectively won the war for the "good" side, but also because America would extend its influence over the world with humanitarian aid, foreign aid, support of the United Nations and International Monetary Fund (IMF), funding of programs it deemed democratic or governments that were pro-American. Every country had a price to it and America would see to it that capitalism would work its magic in America's favor. America not only pumped money into economies, it also pushed hard for free trade and capitalism with the World Trade Organization pushing for free trade and free market reforms globally. The world economy would move on to integrate with America's such that should America sneeze, the whole world would catch a cold. The future was definitely bright. That was until China began to cause ripples big enough to consider waves in America's oversight of its global economy stronghold.

Back in 1979, China with Deng Xiaoping as its leader, pledged to reform and open its economy. This essentially reduced the role of communist ideology in economic policy and opened up the doors to a nation with the world's largest population. Added with the factor of poverty, Chinese worker wages were significantly lower than that of Western workers. In fact, there were no unions and business laws were still undeveloped, if they existed. Corporations the world over flooded China with capital to start up manufacturing lines. The logic of the day was that with less money, more goods could be produced at a lower price. There was no question as to whether a company should set up its factory in China; it was only a matter of when that was to be accomplished. The trade agreements signed by the governments of America and China, which included the US-China Labor Rights Agreement and the US – China Technology Program; the ushering of China to join and rise to the high ranks of the World Trade Organization and the trade policy initiatives, such as the US – China Joint Commission on Commerce and Trade (JCCT), were all done with the foresight of greater productivity and hence greater tax revenues by American corporations, cheaper products for American consumers and a strong American presence in the upcoming Chinese market (Country). However, the unintended consequences of this great push for assumingly free trade with China would be the loss of American jobs and the dependence on Chinese manufactured products. As companies found the prices of their products being brought down more and more by their competitors who had off-shored the manufacturing tasks to China, they had to choose between laying off American workers while setting up factories in China or declare bankruptcy. A significant player in the field of the race to the bottom for prices would be Wal-Mart, which is one of the first companies to ship the manufacturing jobs to China back when China opened its doors n 1979 (Smith). They would go on to become America's largest corporation, reporting a revenue of $378.8 billion for 2008 (Fortune), and stand tall and proud at the forefront of the corporation of corporations who have stood to gain the most from off-shoring. However, the multi-billion dollar question would be, is what's good for the corporate America good for main street? In PBS Frontline's Is Wal-Mart Good for America, correspondent Hedrick Smith interviewed a lady who had recently lost her job to off-shoring and asked her whether she shopped at Wal-Mart. She answered yes as-a-matter-of-factly, for shopping there saved her money. In this segment lies the great paradox of Chinese manufactured goods and America's reliance on these cheap products, even if the situation were not beneficial to America fiscally.

China has endured much flak for its trade deficit with the West, most notably with America. For 2008, America had a $266.3 billion trade deficit with China (Trade). This situation can be summed up by taking a look around the average American home environment, from sweaters to basketballs and batteries to bikes, the majority of manufactured goods that do not require high end technology bear the "Made in China" stamp. In The People's Republic of Capitalism, Ted Koppel interviews a lady who works at one of the ports in China, and the lady mentions that what is shipped to America is manufactured end products, while China imports raw materials and even waste products from America, hence leaving a déjà vu feeling of the colonization period trade model. Once again, the irony is that America is on the supplying end of raw materials which is usually associated with the colonized territories. It is even more unsettling as we look at Japan, with which America has the second largest trade deficit at a distant $72.7 billion in comparison with China's $266.3 billion in trade deficit (Top). What the numbers tell us is that should this pattern continue, America will be buying more goods from China than it sells at this total price. And in simple economic terms, this is not at all a sustainable model. One, because Americans are paying for these goods with United States (US) dollars which flow into the Chinese economy. Two, because it creates a situation where Americans consume and essentially need more Chinese manufactured goods than the Chinese need American made goods. That is exactly like the situation in which Hedrick Smith of PBS Frontline interviewed the lady who lost her job to the Chinese low wage workers; she saw no harm and even found it justifiable to buy Chinese goods.

It is indeed true that American corporations are the main players to set up shop in China to produce and export back to America. However, these corporations are very much at the mercy of the Chinese government. The Economist reported that on August 2008, the Chinese government imposed what was informally referred to as its "economic constitution", a broad anti-monopoly law for a country rife with state-imposed monopolies. On March 18^th 2009, this law came into effect with the rejection of the largest outright acquisition by a foreign firm, a $2.4 billion offer by Coca-Cola for China Huiyuan, China's largest juice company (Hard). Essentially, this is one of the many leverages that the one-party Chinese government formed by the Communist Party has over American corporations. The market is free indeed, but within the boundaries of government control. Take for example the fact that China carved up a $586 billion stimulus package with much less public sentiment or media coverage than America and the fact that much of China's energy, steel and banking sector is state owned and you get the picture of a somewhat monitored economy. Hence, it would not be too radical to argue that should the Chinese government have the will to limit and curtail the actions and plans of foreign corporations, it has the means to go on offense and the corporations could barely do anything. Too much capital has been dumped into the Chinese economy and the infrastructure; networking, wages and market also yield too high a stake to upset. Now should the American government decide to lean towards protectionism and set up high tariffs and barriers, the low prices would instantly vaporize and the American public would not be too happy with that decision. Besides, if it does become hard enough to do business in the US, corporations will not hesitate to search for a new market, with the potential of the upcoming Chinese middle class being very real. As the majority of business interests, markets and manufacturing are in foreign nations, "American" corporations such as McDonalds, Ford and Nike have shown that they are willing to label themselves as multi-national companies, and not American companies. What that translates into is a decrease in American tax revenue as business interests decline and a very real threat of multi-million job losses, all bleeding the American economy.

Now before we move into the complicated task of further evaluating how the Chinese leverage over the American economy would pose a great global challenge, there is an ultimate leverage that needs to be investigated. How does the government keep the economy growing, even in times of recession? How does the government make sure that the credit market does not squeeze up? How does the government fund the recent $700 billion and previous smaller stimulus packages? In order to keep the economy growing, even in times of recessions, the American government has to print more US currency (Maloney). And in order to do the magnificent mathematics, or perhaps magic, of balancing the account books for creating money out of thin air, the government has to sell Treasury Securities. Interestingly enough, China started buying more Securities in June 2008 and overtook Japan as the top holder of American Treasury Securities in September 2008, when the US government started the bailout and containment frenzy (Major). It's bad enough that China has leverage over the American corporations who have set up shop in China, but it's even scarier to imagine that China is also holding America's house of cards, which economists call the financial system, together. Much as Europe was indebted to America post-World War Two, America is greatly indebted to China as of September 2008.

In retrospect, holler and protest as some parties may, the America's trade deficit is here to stay. In all sense, Tim Geithner, America's Treasury Secretary made a point of accusing China of manipulating its currency exchange rate with respect to the dollar, hence making Chinese exports cheaper. Lo and behold, China would give no heed to these ramblings, for it very well knew its hand of cards. Having said that, how does China's leverage over America's economy affect the world? In June 2008, Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac, the two American mortgage giants who held or guaranteed about half of the nation's mortgage loans started to teeter. On September 7, 2008, US federal authorities put them both under federal control. A week later, however, the embattled Lehman Brothers investment bank would be allowed to fail without any federal assistance. Subsequently, two huge American banks, Merrill Lynch and Bank of America would be merged. 48 hours later, an $85 billion stimulus package was hastily cobbled together to prop up the distressed American insurance giant, AIG. This was approximately when China started buying the most amounts of Treasury Securities, as America was borrowing and printing money against its future. China knew that failure for America would mean failure for China, and that was clearly not an option. This was also when the world economy started to slow down. The Dow Jones Industrial Average suffered the largest drop in the history of the Index; the government of Iceland subsequently had to ask for help from the IMF after a series of bank failures; the Reserve Bank of Australia injected nearly $1.5 billion into the banking system, nearly three times as much as the market's estimated requirement; in Taiwan, the central bank on September 16 2008 said it would cut its required reserve ratios for the first time in eight years; the European Central Bank injected $99.8 billion in a one-day money-market auction and many more cash injections would follow; altogether, central banks throughout the world added more than $200 billion from the September 10 to September 17 (Global). The world economy was in chaos and bailout was the vocabulary of the day. All that had triggered it was the collapse of a few American banks and the global financial system felt the aftershocks significantly. Indeed, our financial systems and economy are so integrated that no one country can isolate itself and expect to prosper. With America at the helm of the economic pyramidal network, China's staggering growth, at a targeted 8% Gross Domestic Product (GDP) growth rate in 2009 despite the recession, has already started to threaten America's stronghold on the economic throne. It is not likely that China will match America's GDP in the near future, as America is at a far-away $13.8 trillion from China's $3.4 trillion (CNN.com China). However, over the period of a decade or two, China could become a serious contender. In the meantime, China has raised enough headaches and garnered substantial negative media focus for its previous double digit growth rate, all that while it is only at a distant third place. What this implies is that America feels the pressure of an increasingly stronger China, and the world is watching closely too. The very notion that America could be number two to any other nation was one that was buried with the self-destruction of the Soviet Union. No other world power came close to threatening America after them, until China came along. And the most interesting part is that because China has been building up the momentum for three decades, it does not look like it is about to take a back seat on growth currently.

Historically, the sword has determined the order of the world. "But there has never been a nation in the history of the world that saw its economy decline and maintained its military superiority (,)" Senator Barack Obama declared to the world in his second presidential debate with Senator John McCain. Indeed, the strength of a nation's economy determines how strong its influence will be in the world. That's why America, with its biggest economy, has been playing the role of global police all along. However, in this age and time, military strength does not play the only role in a nation's foreign policy, as multilateral initiatives, non-governmental organizations, strong sentiments of global policy and the push for a common political system is every bit as influential, if not more. Hence, as China inches closer towards America's economic standards, its geo-political clout in its region and globally tends to increase proportionately.

Come the G20 summit in April 2009, the focus will once again be on China and America. The head of the World Bank, Robert Zoellick and its chief economist, Justin Yifu Lin wrote in an article in The
Washington Post, "For the world's economy to recover, these two economic powerhouses must cooperate and become the engine for the Group of 20. Without a strong G-2, the G-20 will disappoint." Indeed, in the face of the current financial meltdown, China is called upon to shoulder greater responsibility to prop up the world economy. In all sense, China stole the limelight at the last G20 summit by announcing a $565 billion stimulus package just before it. Should China come up with another stimulus package, it would delight everyone (Time). One, because China is known to save roughly 50% of its GDP, with household savings accounting for 20 percent of the GDP (Recovery). Hence, China has a deep reservoir of cash to pull out from. Two, as China spend more money, it would potentially set the pace of the world economy again, allowing it to start up once again. Now the paradox here is that America too is spending a lot of money, but it's spending money on a budget deficit of over $1 trillion; while China spends from its cash reservoir. The global perception would then be that as China has more "real" cash to spend, it should be in a better position to spend more to pull everyone out of the current mess. And that, once again, is cash being used as a very important leverage, for whoever has the money shall call the shots. In other words, in the face of current issues, China could potentially take over the global leadership, with more nations paying heed to its political rhetoric.

However, history serves its purpose by pointing at Mr. Deng Xiaoping's advice on avoiding taking the lead (Time). In early February, Chinese prime minister, Wen Jiabao, stressed that China's development was no threat to anyone. It would be a peaceful and co-operative great power (Economist How). So while China is indeed basking in the glory of its new economic growth that propelled it towards being a significant global power, it seems that China is quite reluctant at making the big decisions and taking the lead for the world. Hence, there is nothing to worry about China with regards to geo-politics, or is there? The Chinese are a versatile lot, they are keen to observe and slow to act. However, when they take action, it will be with the conviction of sound observations and a well-thought argument. Take for example the North Korean dictatorship, or the Iran nuclear ambitions or even the genocide in Darfur, Sudan. The United Nations Security Council has, under the steering of America, been trying to slap tighter sanctions and embargos with teeth on these regimes, but China has craftily used its veto power in each case."As an authoritarian regime that reformed, they understand what Kim Jong-Il, North Korea's dictator, is most concerned with—survival," Adam Segal, a Council on Foreign Relations senior fellow for China studies says. China's support runs back to the Korean war, when it lent financial and troop support to the North Koreans. Economically, China supplies them with food, fuel and arms. Politically, China does not want to deal with the uncontrolled influx of refugees should the regime fail. Besides, North Korea serves as a buffer zone with South Korea, home to 29,000 US troops. (Bajoria) As for Iran, even with their volatile combination of exportable Islamist political view and nuclear ambitions, China is reluctant to bit the bullet and slap sanctions on it. The main reason behind it is that Iran supplies China with approximately 13 percent of its oil. Besides, China is working towards asserting its presence and goodwill in the Middle East, hence the dragging of its feet (Segal). Sudan, too exports 64% of its oil to China, in accordance with China's growing demand for energy (Hanson). All three examples point toward China understanding the situation thoroughly and well-thought out strategies, and they are clearly in contradiction with the West's views. In the past, China has chosen to abstain or take a secondary seat in issues that are not directly affecting it. However, as its confidence and self-assertiveness grows, China is more willing to use international organizations like the United Nations to achieve its goals (Segal). When North Korea tested a nuclear weapon in October 2006, China had a change of course and agreed to UN Security Council Resolution 1718, which imposed sanctions on Pyongyang, North Korea. However, it is still the staunchest supporter of the regime and its views on the other two regimes remain unchanged. So, the question is, when the West, specifically America, disagrees with China on international issues with direct dire consequences like genocide and nuclear weapons, who will have the final say on policies?

As free as the Chinese market and as fast-growing as its economy is, subsequently acting as a counter-balance to Western economic progress pride bordering on in-your-face arrogance, China is a communist country. It is special in the sense that it's the first communist country to successfully implement a capitalist free market economy. Economic growth sits at top priority and everything else after that can, and do, take a backseat. In all fairness, China has made some progress in human rights as of today, as compared to the heydays of the Tiananmen Square Massacre. However, by international standards, they are nowhere near stellar. Its recent crackdown on the pro-Tibetan protests was a cause for concern. In a report published in March 24, Amnesty International reports that China carried out 1718 executions in 2008, a grand total of 72% of the world's execution (Executing). Whether these people were given a fair trial and how many more executions go unreported are unknown. Press freedom and freedom of speech are also issues that raise red flags. Most of the press is state-owned and reports news as the government sees fit. The internet, on the other hand, has posed the greatest catalyst for change in this area as China has the world's largest internet population at 298 million (China Internet). Even though the Chinese government sets up filters and censorship firewalls, there has been a surge in Chinese blogs and alternative media which are not affiliated with the government. Come touchy anniversaries, such as the Tiananmen massacre, and topics regarding banned organizations, for example the Fa Lun Gong, a religious body turned anti-government political movement that was declared illegal, the Chinese government does not waiver one bit in its stance of filtering the internet for relevant contents, for it regards the dissemination of information as "privileges" and cites social hegemony as a very important factor in governance. On another note, China is not a keen supporter of going green, as it subscribes to the old school of thoughts that going green takes more effort and money. In fact, the pollution scene is so dire that it is said that in major cities like Shenzhen and Shanghai, there are days when you cannot see the sun directly as the sky is constantly covered by smog and haze. For the Beijing Olympics 2008, China had to limit cars with license plates ending with even and odd numbers to being driven on alternate days as the air quality raised huge concerns among the sporting community about the suitability of the competition venue.

These are only the most pressing issues, and the list goes on and on. What raises concern here though is that as China raises among the ranks of global powers due to its economic prowess, it will yield a substantial influence over the less developed and developing nations. While the West, more pointedly America, pushes for human rights, liberty and green energy, China will play the role of the bad boy among the elite nations. It will play the devil's advocate that has not conformed to too many of the West's standards, yet has trumped almost all Western and Westernized nations in the most important index of all, economy. The message, be it explicit or implicit, will be an anti-Western-values message, one of state rights at the cost of personal liberty, propaganda above free flow of information and the suppression of basic human dignity. While China may argue that it does not promote communism, at least not yet, it does not oppose authoritarianism or dictatorships either. While China may proclaim that it will be a leader that respects national sovereignty, that probably implies that if the nation at stake has a terrible track record of human rights, China will take a step back and act as a nonchalant observer. In all sense, we are not even sure if China will take an active leadership role which requires it to participate in all issues, and not only issues that cut into its bread and butter directly. For if China acts indifferent to the poverty and diseases of the people in Africa while staunchly opposing United Nations sanctions on Sudan, its oil supplier, it will be leadership of the worst kind. Although America is not the perfect role model in global leadership, especially in its hypocrisy of supporting some dictators while overthrowing others in the name of democracy and liberty, or its failure to ratify the Kyoto Protocol, America is the lesser of two evils. At the very least, it takes up an active leadership role and tries its best to contain evil. Edmund Burke says it well, "All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."

Having said all that, what are my suggestions for nations? I believe that as bad as China may seem on paper, it should be given a fair shot at success. After all, if we use all kind of unorthodox ways to block China's rise, how much different are our views regarding respect, humility, liberty and justice as opposed to the Chinese government's? The bottom line, I believe, is that China did not get to where it is today by self-inflation and lying to oneself. China's leaders must have taken a long hard look at themselves in the mirror and tried to figure out what exactly had gone wrong with Chairman Mao Ze Dong's economic policy. That's when they looked poverty in the eye and decided that capitalism was the only way to slay the beast, hence the open door policy in 1979. Before blame should be mounted on others, a nation will have to scrutinize itself and ask the question, "What's wrong with our economy?" In fact, often times it is so easy to overlook the fact that, above all, China is getting all sorts of media attention because its economy works! So, it is time that we take a long and hard look at ourselves, and our economy specifically, especially in the aftermath of the American financial system failure. In America's case, it will have to start addressing its trade deficit, budget deficit and the free printing of currency which leads to inflation and devaluation of the US dollar. Deficits are acceptable over the short term, but if the deficits are constantly run for a longer period of time and remain unaddressed, they will be unsustainable. It is about tightening our belts, from the individual to the federal level. If the check book doesn't balance, one may be homeless some day; if a company runs losses too often, it's going to go bankrupt; if a country runs deficits long enough, it won't be long before it runs itself too far into the ground to be rescued. Borrowing generously against the future is, without a doubt, gambling on the next generation's fortunes and should only be done sparingly, if at all. Fiscal discipline is the word of the day. More accountability and transparency must be seen at the marketplace and rules and regulations must exist, even in a free market environment. Definitely, taking a little cue from our Chinese counterparts with regards to saving and frugality will go a long way. The greatness of a nation is , first and foremost, measured by its economy, so if the economic problems and woes are not addressed and dealt with, a decline in power and influence is almost certain.

In the age of globalization, America stands to lose too much if it were to pull away from free trade and freer markets. Yes, the previous free trade agreements with China could have been flawed, but that is not a legitimate reason to pull back from what has created wealth beyond measure in the entire history of mankind. Never before have there been so many millionaires, billionaires and even trillionaires. Yet again, never before has the gap between the poor and the rich been so huge. What that tells us if that as corporations are made rich by shipping jobs to China with cheap labor, we have to build a social net to cushion the fall of the workers who will lose their jobs over the years. It is inevitable, but it is solvable. Re-educating the jobless to break into new industries which require different or higher technical skills will be one way to go. Encouraging more entrepreneurship will create more jobs. Putting people back into newer and more exciting would be the ultimate goal of this social network. For countries that have yet to sign any significant free trade agreements, it would be wise to learn from the mistakes of others and not repeat them. Building a social net to catch those who fall off the greater locomotive of progress and striving hard to relocate them should be a priority s well. While survival of the fittest is prevalent in free markets, protection of the poor and needy is the number one priority for any government. No matter how free a market is set up to be, there must be oversight, rules and a social cushion.

As stock markets become volatile, corporations become nationalized and cash flow is tight, the threat of protectionism sounds like a good idea. After all, if we don't take care of ourselves, who will take care of us? Slapping tariffs and barriers on foreign goods might earn a nation higher import tax revenues, but that will hurt it even more over the long run. One, the domino effect will be felt throughout the world, whereby everyone plays the game of slapping quotas and duties on products, which will in turn make things more expensive and consumers less likely to buy them. If cash is not flowing into the economy because people are not spending, demand is low and supply is high, and prices of products go up due to significant taxes, it is only a matter of time before inflation goes up and the recession turns worse. Every nation's economy today is integrated into the greater network of the global economy today. Hurting thy neighbor is equivalent to hurting thyself. That is why protectionism cannot stand, even against the formidable China which built its economy on exports. Should the Congress of America slap high taxes on Chinese goods, prices will go up and customers will not be pleased with the price hike. Tax revenues will be slightly higher, but China will be likely to slap its own tariffs on American made products, the only difference being that the tariffs will be higher. China will also pinch its federal loans and purchases of Treasury Securities, which would further tighten up credit markets and lock both countries into a longer global recession. Clearly, protectionism has not worked, does not work, and will not work. So on policy making sessions, protectionism should be striked off the list of probable actions and protection in the form of social cushioning should be added in instead.

"The rise of China over the past three decades have been astonishing. But it has lacked the one feature it needed fully to satisfy the ultranationalist fringe : an accompanying decline of the West. Now capitalism is in a funk in its heartlands. … Although in public, China's leaders eschew triumphalism, there is a sense in Beijing that the reassertion of the Middle Kingdom's global ascendancy is at hand. (Economist How)" There is nowhere China is going but up, up and away. It has been a stable growth for three decades, riding on the shoulders of the growing middle class and supported by the pride of a people with 5000 years worth of history and tradition. And much as Americans love to win, the Chinese do not like to lose, especially fueled by the bitter history of foreign intrusion in China by the West and Japan. The Chinese government will see to it that under its oversight, the Chinese people will be propelled to newer and greater heights; and the best way to handle an incoming wave is to ride it, not go against it.

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Do you like her?

2009-03-27T18:14:00.001-07:00

How do you know if you like her?

If you got her pic as your laptop wallpaper, do you like her?

If you have her pic as yiour phone wallpaper, do you like her?

If you check her blog three times everyday, do you like her?

If you like those short little messages, short as they are, do you like her?

If you like to just see her smile, even if it ain't at you, do you like her?

If you just want her to be happy no matter what she does, do you like her?

If you barely know her, can you like her?

If you are worlds apart, can you like her?

If you have met before, but never again, not yet at least, can you like her?

So, do you like her?

Wow.

2009-03-22T04:53:00.001-07:00

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness…”

These were the basis on which we debated for the past week, more particularly, Floyd M. Ridick Model Senate in Stetson University, Deland, Florida. It was an eye-opening experience as we had Florida senator, Bill Nelson, former soldier and astronaut, give a talk; as well as a congressional historian analyze the Congress as well as Obama's Administration Policy. I enjoyed myself thoroughly, I have to admit. Among them, there were a few reasons.

One, I realized that I don't want to do political science. Stetson University is a premier private liberal arts school (Google the definition up), and they specialize in Law as well as Political Science. So all the kids around us actually studied poli-sci as their major, and we (Embry-Riddle KIDS) were a bunch of engineers and pilots tagging along to screw things around a little. But anyways, I realized how poli-sci is about systems and policy and almost absoluteness in the sense of political systems. It kind of reviewed law and legislation and also policies, which was not exactly what I wanted to do – academic research of what had been done and what could be done in the future by politicians. I also realized that the US poli-sci kind of segregates politics and policy from economics, which is not how the real world work.

Typically, modern poli-sci does not look at economic and social impacts of policy and systems, as economics deal with the economic models and their impact while social sciences deal with the social aspects of a policy. As to why I said poli-sci is not exactly what I want is because my ultimate goal is to govern with servant leadership and public service, or in more straightforward terms, run for office in Malaysian politics. See, the real world does not give you the luxury of putting economics aside and only focus on policy. The thing is, people are pretty impatient. If you run for politics with a failed economics plan, you can bet your time will be up really soon. That's why Mahathir could stay in absolute power for so long, because he knew how to build up the Malaysian economy, both by heavy industry (automobile, something to be really proud of as we are the only nation in South East Asia with a national carmaker(!!!) and oil refining) as well as light manufacturing (computer components etc). The other reason is that politicians stand out when they do not do what other politicians do. See the thing about politics is that you can stay in office as long as you want provided your constituents still vote you in (only exception being the Presidency), but it will be a long long period (and some even serve till death) which could make things mundane. In fact, when you stay in office too long, you lack new ideas and even lose touch with reality (unless you strive hard not to, like Kit Siang), and since standing out needs new ideas, go in, rise tall and come out should be the game plan.

The other thing I realized was that America, much like Malaysia has its own set of problems too which are of the same intensity if not greater. In fact, one thing prevalent here in America is the fact that life is so much more complicated than back home, starting from credit card debt, mortgage options for house purchase, health care and insurance as well as the media, just to name a few. Hence, the problems too, are more complicated than ours. For example, health care here is very advanced, as in if one doctor says "That's it, you only have six months to live", there should be no despair. Should one choose to fight to the end, there will be legitimate doctors (not spinmasters who wanna make a quick buck conning you!) who are testing new drugs or new methods and you could possibly be their white lab mouse! The point here is that should one opinion be something that you do not agree or are not satisfied with, there are so many other doctors out there who will give you a second and even third opinion and possibly treatment.

The only cost is cost, literally. Healthcare here is so damn expensive! I went to a general practitioner for general issues, and I was recommended to a dermatologist and then lab work had to be done! To date, I am not convinced that I am totally cured, but the bill has already sprawled to $ 550! Two visits and a lab report, half a thousand dollars gone! Add this personal experience to articles and news reports you see on legitimate sources like Time magazine and CNN about how lack of or insufficient insurance could seriously dent a patient's finance and possibly retirement funds or even lead to bankruptcy, and you have a very good picture of how screwed up healthcare is. In fact, just FYI, a huge amount of people in America do not have insurance coverage, I do not know the exact figure but I know it's significant enough a number that it was one of the topics of the presidential debates!

Now if the whole system is so inefficient and expensive, why didn't anyone do anyone to reform it? People did, and this was BIG names, and people failed. Hillary Clinton tried to reform healthcare as Senator back when Bill Clinton, her hubby, was president, but it failed and it almost killed her political career! Now what are the opposing forces, and how do they gain legitimacy for doing resisting change that seems so necessary and a no-brainer? Healthcare in America is privatized, which means that drug, medical equipment and insurance corporations stand to benefit from the complicated and expensive system, so if the cow is such a fat one which not only produces milk but also cash, why change it to be leaner? Hence, when Congress( parliamentary concept) or Senate (the next rung in the chain of command ladder before the legislation goes to the President for approval or veto) tries to introduce change to the system, these big and rich corporations hire lobbyists to speak out for them in these Houses and resist reform. So far the lobbyists have been doing a great job with tools such as gifts (big one mind you!) and monetary donations for election campaigns (every four years), seeing how screwed up this system is! And then again these lobbyists and their antics are not really legislated by strict law or tight rules (at least not last time I checked) so there leaves a lot of space for corruption, another problem that is prevalent here.

The other issue is a politician's political career, which is not so different from any other politician's in the world. Politicians here are very much into ideological warfare, their stand on topics like abortion, gun rights, the two wars, health care etc are very well defined, and they also have various ideological categorization, like liberal, ultra-liberal and conservative and populist etc. However, a few things could be potentially complicating towards one's career, labels like fascist, communist and socialist. And one thing that the opposition is very likely to call you is socialist should you attempt to change the system too aggressively. Now how that kind of makes sense is that this not only land of the free, but also land of the rich – capitalism. So people believe that the people are the government and have an inherent distrust towards politicians and believe that the dollar should speak out louder than anything else. But when you do not have the dollars, what happens? The government should take care of you, duh! So how this works out is that when you expect the government to take care of you and not you take care of yourself, that becomes kind of socialism. Now the slippery slope is that if governments aren't here for the people's good, what the hell are they here for? Then again, the people are the government so if they can't take care of themselves, how can the government take care of them? And the argument goes on and on. So basically, I realized that being number one (even in the world) does not take away your problems, if anything, that status increases your problems and the complexity of them!

What is worth rejoicing is also the fact that I found out about a coveted internship position with, whom else but, Senator Bill Nelson from Florida! Well, once again the interesting thing here is who you know, not what you know! Dorn, my professor, happens to have his students working there so getting an intern is not too hard! Now the key was his observation of my talent for political topics and my knowledge too. On the first day, there was a curious wondering of how well I would fare in American politics debate, but by the second day, that curiosity was taken care of by assurance; assurance that I knew my stuff and even if I did not I could make up a fair amount of believable shit! Hence, in came the personal coaching on topics like the Cuban-American "affair" and the "Mexican Question". And then, there was the offer that should I like to, he could assist in my applying for an internship with Senator Nelson. And for these two reasons, I have to express my gratitude, THANK YOU! (He does a lot of research you know, so this article could possibly be read by him, hence must proceed with caution! : ) )

The other significant discoveries that I made over the weekend was also ideological warfare. One very touchy issue is abortion, either pro-choice(pro-abortion or baby killer, your pick of names) or pro-life(anti-abortion or fantasy lander). Even this issue is not so clear cut, as we have partial birth abortion, in which trimester abortion should be allowed, abortion for rape and incest and the likes. But one thing that's for sure is that it sure is easier to work with someone if their ideology is similar to yours. For example, I had a bill that was for resuming funding for NGOs that supported programs using contraception and even abortion, mainly for population control and STD control(got AIDS), like the UN and Red Cross. Their funding by the US Federal Government was cut by the Bush administration (he was notorious for his abortion ideals too, cutting funding for embryonic stem cell research). This bill was passed strictly on abortion grounds, even though we mentioned what great jobs these NGOs were doing, and that contraception and abortion was only one small part of their programs! It was like people were isolating the NGO's flaws and playing down or even missing the great good that they do, like debt cancellation, humanitarian aid, and saving lives literally! Mind you, it was very very easy to just slip into that ideological warfare and focus on what we have in difference as politicians and forget what we had in similarity as Americans (I was playing an American Senator) and as humans! So even if the intention of an action was good, people could just easily disagree on "fundamental" principals and forget about going into the details of these actions! Magnify these types of petty but fundamental arguments and you have strict division based on differences and filibusters but not bipartisanship to get shit done! Truly it was disagreeing by being disagreeable! But then again, if you don't fight for what you think is right, what do you fight for?

One last food for thought was thrown out by Senator Nelson, one of servanthood leadership; one of running for office being one of the many public services one can do for one's country. I could be an active critic of the state, or I could be a volunteer or I could just be a good citizen and these would be equally good public service too! Think of what one drug addict could do to his family and friends and potential victims when he runs out of money or when he goes into another seizure and you see why being a good citizen is good public service. And what evolved in my thoughts along the way was that yes, you have to keep contributing to society at all levels, which means start contributing today, and not contribute only when you have the time and power. This is because you will have even less time in office and you won't have the strong ethic of serving the public if this hasn't been what you have been doing all along!

This was a very powerful weekend, not to mention a fun one (think 70% female population, as opposed to Riddle's 20%)! I learnt a lot, had a lot of thoughts to process and also had the golden opportunity to see democracy in action. Indeed, voicing my opinion and not having to worry about being penalized by forces that I voted in is indeed liberating! Now that kind of reminds me why I'm here to begin with! : ) To learn from the best and bring it back to my motherland! MALAYSIA BOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Globalization and its virtues.

2009-03-07T12:33:00.001-08:00

WARNING! Yet another academic paper!

Select one specific issue/argument offered by critics of globalization, and then respond to the criticism with information from Jagdish Bhagwati and/or other proponents of globalization. Make your own position on the issue clear, as you marshal evidence.

Globalization is probably the most hotly debated and controversial topic in modern history. It traces its roots back to trade by merchants in just about any civilization. However much goods and currency have changed hands with the increasing volume of trade since the booming era of capitalism and free market democracy; sharp criticisms, and violent protests at times, have also been aimed at agents of globalization in a proportionate amount too. In fact, one particular criticism of globalization states that generally, freer markets and trade-propelled economic growth have done nothing to alleviate, and might even have enhanced poverty in some parts of the world.

It would only be appropriate to begin the globalization debate in India. India in the 1950s was neither the "call center hub" of the world nor the Asian Silicon Valley that it is today. In stark contrast, India had an economic emphasis on autarky and capital-intensive projects (Bhagwati 55). In fact, India was not making much progress in economic terms, in spite of the euphoric post-independence mood. Bluntly speaking, India was free, but it was poor. In formulating a poverty reduction policy, the Indian Economic Commission (IEC) assigned a young economist from Oxford, Jagdish Bhagwati with the project of analyzing the Indian economy and offering a plan to move forward. What he found out was that "if there was no way to significantly affect the share of the (economic) pie going to the bottom 30 percent, the most important thing was to grow the pie." (Bhagwati 54) In fact, this idea could best be summarized by Michael Lechter's words in Other People's Money, "Remember, a small percentage of a large number can be much greater than a large percentage of a small number."(Lechter 67) In this case, it was increasing the economic pie and leveraging a small percentage of it to the poor as opposed to trying hard to trickle down the benefits of a small economic pie that we're looking at. India's previous emphasis on self-sufficiency and high-skilled work would not benefit the masses, and hence, poverty would still remain high. Bhagwati moved on to argue, both during his tenure with the IEC as well as in his book, that an outward-oriented economy was the most suitable model for India if she were serious about lifting the poor up.

At this point, the popular and populist propositions of the (then) current policies were harping on two points. "…first, growth was regarded as an end in itself and poverty removal was forgotten until a new, socially conscious generation of economists who worried about poverty arrived on the scene, and second, that the strategy of growth in order to reduce poverty was a laissez-faire, hands-off, passive strategy."(Bhagwati 54) The first point was taken up head-on by Bhagwati by bringing up the policy suggestion that India should manufacture and export labor-intensive goods so as to hire the poor in bulk and reduce poverty rapidly (Bhagwati 54, 55). Policy number two would be to export light manufactures in greater quantities as opposed to heavy industry which required highly-skilled workers. This was hypothesized as such so that there would be an increase in demand for unskilled workers in far greater quantities which would help the poor more directly. Coupled with these two policies, he foresaw a market geared towards freer trade that would promote growth that was "even more effective in reducing poverty through the salutary effects of the increased demand for unskilled labor." (Bhagwati 56, 57)

Fast forwarded three decades, Deng Xiaoping was the leader of the People's Republic of China in the 1980s. It was with his "actions speak louder than words" mentality that he opened China's doors towards foreign trade and started the long process of healing the Chinese economy that had been stifled since the Cultural Revolution. Mr. Deng ushered China towards an economy based on exporting light manufactures. United States companies and corporations flocked China with their factories as labor was abundant and wages were cheap. Bhagwati's policies were being implemented, albeit in China. And true to form, Bhagwati's prescription was correct. Today, "Made in China" is a household "brand" the world over. To stay in business, major corporations have to set up factories in China in order to maintain the competitive edge or even to survive. From China's perspective, poverty declined from an estimated 28 percent in 1978 to 8 percent in 2008. Its gross domestic product (GDP) has leapfrogged from approximately 188 billion dollars in 1980, then trailing Mexico and Spain's GDP, to a 2,645 billion dollars in 2006, trailing Germany, Japan and the United States only. In its entirety, the People's Republic of China has demonstrated that coupled with the right policies, free trade and growth can be an "active pull-up strategy" to accelerate the reduction of poverty (Bhagwati 54).

There is a constant plethora of accusation that globalization leaves a volatile and deeply unsettling effect, be it by allowing and even encouraging the sublime working environment of sweatshops or by suppressing the poor to work for low wages and long hours. In contrast, I strongly believe that the most pacifying aspect of globalization is the middle class that it creates. Simple economics is sufficient to prove that as more of the poor work long hours for low wages, as opposed to being unemployed – for absolutely no wages, they would accumulate a certain amount of wealth that would propel them upwards in the income bracket. As is the case with China, more and more people would be alleviated from poverty to a slightly better state – the middle class. However, as is the case with the middle class of many developing countries, the people who make up such a class may not be too well off either. By bare technical standards, it means that they are living on more than a dollar per day. This could very well mean that they are living on ten dollars per day, or that they are living on two dollars per day; not too much above the poverty line, but not quite poor enough either. Hence what is there to stop them from falling back into the division of the poor? Employment is one big factor in keeping their hopes to move up the social ladder alive, for employment bears wages and hard-earned wages yields dignity and self-respect. The employment, however mundane or routine it may seem to protestors in the developed world, serves as a beacon of hope. And such is the case of hope that "those at the bottom of the scale feel that they can also make it: inequality is accepted because it excites not envy but aspiration and hope. Capitalism's inequalities then become tolerable, … because they make the poor fancy that these prizes may come to them someday too."(Bhagwati 66)

The other significant problem solved by the creation and retention of a middle class is the breaking of a vicious cycle of a life of crime and drugs and delivering them into the virtuous cycle of moving upward in the social class ladder. As described by Bhagwati, when trade and growth bring employment to the doors of the poor, they might not be qualified to take it. This lack of qualifications could be as general as structural problems, which address the allure of drugs and the lack of a role model in single-parented or broken families (Bhagwati 57). What I'm suggesting here is that should the middle class have a brighter future and better employment opportunities to look forward to, they could potentially cast their hopes and dreams upon the future and temporarily forget about their current dilemma. For example, in The World is Flat, Thomas Friedman brings up the case of Indian students sipping sweet coffee after hours of evening math class, on a regular basis, just so they can continue to work on their homework problems late into the night (Friedman 213). I can personally relate to this point by Friedman as I, too hail from a developing Asian country with aspiring dreams similar to those of the Indian students who envision their bright future in the Indian Silicon Valley and their role models being the engineers or even call center agents. My grandmother, who was uneducated formally, told my mum that no matter how poor monetarily she was, she was not to allow me to be poor educationally. Such is the case of a middle class student in a country whose GDP ranks as the 39^th largest in the world. So too is the case of Indian students who have a fair shot at working for IBM, Motorola or even the call centers which have offices located in India, thanks to the laying of thousands of miles of fiber optics linking the United States and India which was enabled by the boom of globalization.

Of course, there will still be cynical voices that argue that India was able to grab the chance because they already had a fairly acceptable system of higher education, as is the case with the Indian Institute of Technologys(IITs), which are acclaimed to have tougher tests than the United States based Massachusetts Institute of Technology (MIT)! Here, Bhagwati elegantly captures reality in the frame of his words, "Education by itself, especially higher education, is unlike to help. Unemployed educated youth will likely burn tram cars rather than lead to greater growth." (Bhagwati 64) Educational opportunity in its entirety is not sufficient to solve the problems laid down by poverty, as education without prospects of employment means nothing for the educated and unemployed graduate. Jobs that could not otherwise have been created are created by companies that venture abroad to set up company in India, and this is made possible only by trade and growth, two integral parts of globalization.

My final argument here is against the claims that globalization, which brings with it new technology and more efficient ways, favors the rich and innovative. Such is the case with the green revolution, which describes the arrival and usage of new and vastly more productive varieties of wheat and rice in India. When the new seeds arrive the cynics claimed, the farmers who would benefit were those who had access to credit or had a cushion of wealth to fall back on should their innovative move bite back. In fact, they went even further by arguing that with greater production of wheat and rice by more sophisticated technology, demand for labor, along with wages would decline; and prices of food would also go down as supply exceeded demand. It was not to be. Agricultural prices did not fall because of increasing demand, which resulted from the investments that added new jobs and incomes. Besides, irrigation and new seeds led to multiple cropping, which increased the demand for more labor and as such, higher wages. The underlying issue on this was that the Indian government had implemented policies that put a floor to agricultural prices as a social safety net and also the establishment of a substantial scientific support system that contained the possibilities of the emergence of new pests and diseases harmful to farming and yields (Bhagwati 55,56). In all sense, if globalization were handled with foresight and fore planning, along with the implementation of substantive policies to cushion the fall should there be any hiccups in the process, poverty could be dealt with explicitly.

Having seen overwhelming evidence that globalization does indeed reduce poverty by increasing jobs and subsequently increasing wages and the standard of living, in the context of good government policy, I am not of two minds as to where the world economy should be headed towards. In all fairness, globalization does have its discontents and legitimate space for improvement, but its virtues outweigh its shortcomings. As such, it would be interesting to compare the feasibility and the rolling out of globalization against its few shortcomings with Mr. Deng's famous quote, "Be it a white or black cat, the cat capable of catching mice is a good cat."

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White Man’s Burden

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aper 1 Topic 2

Evaluate some apparent successes and failures of the "white man's burden" in a location of your choice. The location must be a former British or European colony, or part of a former colony. Supply what information you are able to gather regarding any apparent goals/aims of Western intervention in this location, along with a limited number of specific results you identify (and can defend) as following from that intervention.

The Federation of Malaya found its independence from the British on August 31, 1957. It was a tropical country blessed with fertile soil and rich minerals, breath-taking beaches and lush rainforests and above all, a people of ethnic identities as diverse as their religions and political affiliations. The Federation would later include three more states to become Malaysia on September 16, 1963; and the final national map was drawn with the separation of the Republic of Singapore from Malaysia.

Malaysia traces its history back to the founding of the Malacca Sultanate by Parameswara in the early 15^th century. The next five centuries would see the inclusion of 12 other states to form the current Malaysia, as well as a significantly long period of occupation by the Portuguese, the Dutch and the English. Of the three major occupation forces, the British administration had the most recent occupation period and, proportionately, the most significant influence in the region.

From the eyes of natives, and historians at a later stage, the British had ample reasons to set up colonies in this region. The French had control over Indochina, encompassing modern Laos, Vietnam and Cambodia; the Dutch had set foot in some states of Malaya and Indonesia; hence, the British could not be seen to lose out on the scramble for land, power and resources. However, back home in Europe, this period of high imperialism was viewed by some as a call to duty, a duty to spread the flames of civilization, even if it meant having to set out in exile and to be cursed by natives. This was a call to live up to a legacy of greatness, both in wealth and in power, and to spread the cause of humanity; this was the white man's burden.

There is an underlying argument that the British had opened the eyes of the native Malay, Chinese and Indian ethnic groups to the very concepts of mechanical time, machinery, industry specific labor and work efficiency. This had brought in a period of great economic growth and modern ways of harnessing nature's resources for man's good. In fact, the argument would go so far as to claim that the British had been preparing natives to face a modern world economy of similar patterns, and it was definitely to their benefit that the British had set foot in Malaya. However, the paradox of this argument lies in the very fact that the modern world economy was built exclusively by the West and, first and foremost, for the West. By introducing mining ships to mine more tin from the ground, the British were aiming to supply the ever-hungry automobile factories in Britain, not raise the export revenues of Malaya. By bringing in more Indian immigrant workers to tap rubber trees, they were looking to ship all rubber back to manufacture tires, not enhance the diversity of the Malayan society. By clearing the rainforests and planting oil palms in place, they were seeking a continuous supply of raw materials for machinery lubricants and power supply, not to put Malaya's name on the map for world top exporter of oil. The argument that foreign occupation had set out to "educate" natives about the "real world out there" was built upon the fact that this "education" was a side agenda to exploiting all known natural resources, if it could even be considered education; and also that the modern world economy was built by and geared towards serving people of the West, not benefit all under the humanity umbrella, and certainly not natives from whom all had been taken.

Post-colonization, Malaysia did not set out to reform the economic model that the British had left in place. The financially savvy Chinese went back to doing their business, literally, and some small businesses grew to become large companies which had significant influence in the local market. The Malays continued to dwell in politics, dominating at local and national level. The Indians lived on in the rubber or oil palm plantations, where their predecessors had first set foot in. Young Malaysia was contented to be soaked up in its chest-thumping antics and newly gained patriotism in its achievement of independence from the British without bloodbaths, until May 13, 1969. Racial tensions and unequal distribution of prosperity across the socio-economic map reared their ugly heads. The Chinese were accused of having too tight a grip on the economy, controlling most aspects of the economy with less than 30% of the nation's population. Hence, in the general elections of 1969, when the pro-Chinese political party Democratic Action Party (DAP) had a tied number of seats with the federal government's Alliance Party for the most industrialized state, Selangor, and also reduced the government's majority in Parliament, all hell broke loose. Rioting spread throughout the nation's capital, Kuala Lumpur, and in cities with a concentrated Chinese population, whereby killing and arson were rampant. A national emergency was declared and subsequently, the New Economic Plan (NEP) was rolled out by the National Operations Council (NOC), the governing body of the day. The NEP set out to narrow the gap between the haves and the have-nots.

The plan was by and large a course of action for redistribution of resources among the poor and the rich, with the lines clearly drawn along ethnic borders. This was not so much a racially-biased plan as it was a plan to set right what had been wronged from the beginning, knowingly. The British had brought in large numbers of Chinese and Indian immigrants to Malaysia back in their occupation. They quickly realized, albeit with hindsight, that these ethnic groups were neither culturally hegemonous nor religiously bonded. They spoke different languages, ate different food, worshipped different Gods and even observed different taboos. To integrate them socially would take a large amount of time, energy and money, all of which the British were not willing to contribute. Hence, the second best plan was to separate these groups of people, both geographically and professionally. The Chinese were to live among themselves in "New Villages" near tin mines; the Indians would be concentrated in huts in plantations and the Malays would also group within themselves in separate villages. To divide and conquer would work in favor of the British colonial powers, for productivity was of top priority, if not the only one. To put it bluntly, the British did what was easy, not what was right. As such, when the British administration left Malaysia to dwell on her own, lines were clearly drawn between racial groups and tensions were existent, waiting only for the right moment to explode.

After taking so much flack, one cannot but ask: Did the British do no good whatsoever? To concede a fact, democracy was the best piece of civilization brought forth by foreign powers. The drafting of the Federal Constitution by the Reid Committee to reflect public consensus, the enactment of the constitutional monarchy model of democracy in acknowledgement of the King of the nation and the liaison between the English High Commission and the Federal Government to provide counsel and training all served to establish a young but stable democracy. In contrast with neighboring Thailand and Indonesia who have gone through a handful of military coups, rewriting of the constitution and dictatorships, Malaysia stands out as a shining example. However, to be critical, more could have been done by the British in setting up the democratic system in this nation. Aspects that go hand in hand with democracy such as civil rights, social justice, separation of state and religious institution, individualism and freedom could have been emphasized upon more. For example, the Internal Security Act (ISA) was introduced when the British were fighting Communism. It allowed law enforcers to bring anyone into custody without trial or bail for up to two years. In modern Malaysia, the threat of Communism is long gone; but the same law is still being used, albeit to silence and threaten opposition party members and social activists. Such laws are still in power because a culture of social justice was neither introduced nor accentuated.

On another case, free Malaysians have yet to embrace the liberation that comes with democracy fully. The majority are still of the opinion that casting a vote is the only symbol of democracy. As such, issues such as holding the government accountable for its policies and actions, criticizing the government through a free media, the right to assemble peacefully and freedom of speech are viewed as privileges, not basic rights of every free citizen. This is the most profound example of the system being ahead of the people's mindset, with a lot of ground left to be covered by propagation of the concept of basic rights and embracing freedom. History stands as a witness that had the British failed to do any other good in Malaysia, democracy was the one good seed it planted, with a lot of room for cultivation and attending to.

Above all else, it was the drive of economic and power gains that drove the course of the British Eastwards, not the civilizing mission; for such an argument only existed after occupation, when a moral justification was needed. After all, Queen Elizabeth did not send forth Francis Light to establish colonies in order to teach natives to speak English and the intricacies of the English high society. For all we know, the United Kingdom had their fair share of the poor to feed without having to worry about the far off natives who neither had knowledge of machines nor table manners. In all fact, it was the gains of exploiting cheap labor and virtually free resources to power Britain that had pushed the course Eastward. Hence, the white man's burden should be to divide and conquer, to import immigrants without an social integration plan and export resources, to show the natives the wonders of machinery and leave a vacuum in knowledge of construction and maintenance and above all, to serve his people at the expense of the natives.

White Man’s Burden

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There is an underlying argument that the British had opened the eyes of the native Malay, Chinese and Indian ethnic groups to the very concepts of mechanical time, machinery, industry specific labor and work efficiency (Adas 208). This had brought in a period of great economic growth and modern ways of harnessing nature's resources for man's good. In fact, the argument would go so far as to claim that the British had been preparing natives to face a modern world economy of similar patterns, and it was definitely to their benefit that the British had set foot in Malaya. However, the paradox of this argument lies in the very fact that the modern world economy was built exclusively by the West and, first and foremost, for the West. By introducing mining ships to mine more tin from the ground, the British were aiming to supply the ever-hungry automobile factories in Britain, not raise the export revenues of Malaya. By bringing in more Indian immigrant workers to tap rubber trees, they were looking to ship all rubber back to manufacture tires, not enhance the diversity of the Malayan society. By clearing the rainforests and planting oil palms in place, they were seeking a continuous supply of raw materials for machinery lubricants and power supply, not to put Malaya's name on the map for world top exporter of oil. The argument that foreign occupation had set out to "educate" natives about the "real world out there" was built upon the fact that this "education" was a side agenda to exploiting all known natural resources, if it could even be considered education; and also that the modern world economy was built by and geared towards serving people of the West, not benefit all under the humanity umbrella, and certainly not natives from whom all had been taken.

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2009-01-31T21:18:00.001-08:00

Come to think of it, ma whole life I've been surrounded by guys.

Boy's Brigade, 10 years.

Karate, 13 years.

Embry-Riddle, next 4 years.

So sometimes, I do wonder, hmm… what exactly are girls? No, I'm not a sexist( or at least I dun perceive myself to be one).

You be nice to them, they shun you (cause a lot of them like duschebags). They're nice to you, you dun like them(cause they're easy).

You be friendly, you're a stalker (legit in this school with an overwhelming guy population, 85%!!! ). You be cool, they'll never notice you. You be loud as you are, you're obnoxious. You be quiet and gentle, that's not YOU!

They're not smart enough, they're not pretty enough, they're too clingy… GOD!

Food for thought: What if you don't find the ideal girl? Can you live alone?

Well there is THE girl, but she's too damn far! Both geographically and emotionally. : /

Two cents’ worth

2009-01-21T21:14:00.001-08:00

I'm an emerging engineer, aerospace field to be exact.

I've had the good fortune of being educated at a few of the most outstanding institutions known to local knowledge. I'm here now in the States, and am on a life-altering journey. The road will be long and I will be tested, due and again, but I am ready.

But the question keeps popping in my head, is my country ready for me? I want to serve HER. But is she ready?

It's not exactly classified material that I am one among a huge number of Chinese educated students with comparable results, but will not be acknowledged by our own administration, for political reasons.

Science needs money, science needs materials. But above all, science needs cultivation, of scientists and of culture; of a secure future and of a sacred commitment; of a color-blind system and of a meritocracy environment.

We cannot import discarded technology and expect state of the art results. We cannot sign decade-long contracts and expect them to stay for a lifetime. We cannot expect to cast out our best talents and import "foreign talent" sustainably.

Is she ready?

She ISN'T, they bellow. Then again, she never is, according to them. She wasn't ready for the Twin Pillars, neither was she for her own national car in the whole of SEA. She isn't for a change, but then again, who decides whether she is? WE DO.

"Nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change." Barack Hussein Obama

Importance of Archiving

2009-01-01T13:18:00.001-08:00

Right, consider this. All modern and advanced nations have a national archive, and their various districts and states have their own resource center of old file, documents, photographs, sound files and videos etc. A collection of artifacts in short.

However, it is a very lacking culture in Malaysia, not least at the grassroots level. Yes, we have a National Archive, but how many actually know what it is, let alone where it is? Arkib Negara, Jalan Duta main branch, Google it.

Let's first take a look at the few famous examples of archives. The American Congressional Library, Harvard and MIT's libraries, a presidential library for each outgoing American library, Google etc.

What's so important about archiving?

POLITICS

Obama is 44^th president of USA. All big publications want to dig up facts about him, where to go to?

Academicians and historians want to know about the voting record of a politician, see what is his stand on things, where to go to?

We want to know what was Anwar's stand on vernacular education, back when he was in Deputy PM and compare it to now, see if he is a chameleon because he wants to please the crowds and win popularity or if he has been consistent in his stands. Where to go to?

We want to know what role Najib, our prospective PM in three months, played in the 513 riots. Did he fan the flames of racial tensions? Where to go to?

We want to know how Mahathir rescued the Malaysian economy from potentially hitting 231 million percent inflation rate (Zimbabwe). Where to go to?

SCIENCE

Pluto was downgraded into not becoming a planet anymore. How was it done? Astronomer, Mike Brown was doing field research to find larger bodies out there in space. He had a telescope take pictures of the same piece of the sky at alternate periods of time, say every two hours. Then when they were stored in his computer, he compared them to find a difference in the skies, i.e. a difference in the brightness of a light source, or the different sizes of a blinking light source. When he did find something that he thought to be of importance to his field of study, which was basically a huge chunk of mass, he then had to figure out its period. (The Earth's period about the Sun is a year.) Now these bodies took a long time to change their locations, say ten to twenty years to move the distance of a millimeter! He couldn't wait so long to figure it out, for very practical reasons. So what did he do? Go back to the archives and look for photographs of the shining mass in the sky for as long back as they could and generally compare them to each other and calculate the path it took from say 30 years back to today, and hence, you could get the whole period of the mass! So, once again, where to go?

GENERAL

You have Facebook? You have Photobucket? You have Friendster? You have photo albums? Then you're keeping an archive of your photographs, that you'll cherish ten years from now.

You parents have love letters from back then when they started courting each other? You have yourself an archive of your parent's romantic history.

You backup your computer files? Why?

SIGNIFICANCE

Humans are beings of stories. We watch movies, read newspapers, story books and even listen to song lyrics because they have a story to them. Archives that are well maintained and that keep key artifacts will tell a great story for our kids and grandkids and generations to come.

We are a race that builds our future on the achievements of the past. As Newton put it, he was successful for he had stood on the shoulders of giants. And although these giants were dead, their work was archived in the form of paper or drawings, and we, the future generation could tap on these resources. So now, we don't have to derive calculus from its foundations all over again, we just have to apply the methods to everyday problems.

Humans are but mortals. Our memories will fade and we will die. So what happens when I leave this world? Do my knowledge, experience and ideas have to follow me to the grave? Can my friends and family and colleagues not know what I had done or thought in my lifetime? Will my grandkids not know what I had gone through to get to where I am? Will the next generation not know about my wife and our romance? Yes, if there were no archiving of any form.

The importance of history is learning about it and not repeating the blunders and mistakes that people before us made. It means learning from previous mistakes and emulating past successes. It means a shorter but more prepared journey. It means saved resources and increased efficiency.

So, start archiving today. Archiving does not mean keeping EVERYTHING! It means keeping key things, like your first movie tickets with a girl you cherish, like your test results, good or bad, which motivated you to study hard, like meeting minutes, like the historical issue of TIME when the first black president of USA was elected.

START ARCHIVING TODAY!

Yours Sincerely.

2009-01-01T12:16:00.001-08:00

Hey people out there who have yet to go to college,

Just a reality check.

Well, this begins with my experience in America. Not that it has been a whole long experience, but just wanted to share it with you guys before you take the plunge into an American college. Note: This article applies exclusively for American colleges, I'm not too sure about the rest of the world.

So 9/11 hit America, so the global war on terrorism was waged, so the American economy is going into a slow but sure recession. So how would this affect you?

Well if you're planning to come to an American college, here are a few thoughts to ponder over.

If you're coming here, you're probably thinking of exploiting the industry here as well. But be aware that America is not the land of endless oppurtunities it previously was. 9/11 seriously changed the whole American landscape. Imagine you're the world's leading superpower. The last time your free land was hit was back in World War 2, particularly by the Japs in Pearl Harbour. You took them down with two atomic bombs, they surrendered and you were world heroes. Then you went on to ride the wave of an economic surge. All other big players in the economic realm had humongous debts but you were rich from cash by selling weapons and planes and wartime tools. You had the world's largest consumer base which was capable of spending. (China and India were big, even back then, but more than half of the population was under the poverty line, surviving on US$ 1 and below per day.)Consumer spending was big, real big. Economy was booming, then the Space Race was won and everyone loved you. You were at the top of your game.

Fast forward four decades, your symbolic World Trade Centers were bombed by your very own airplanes. Your very military headquarters, the Pentagon was also a target for airplane crashes, albeit a failed plan. More than two thousand American lives were lost, on your own free soil. (Now if it were lost in a self-inflicted war for a cause on foreign soil, it's a hero's death. But two thousand innocent lives on your own ground? Unacceptable.) This meant war, two wars in fact.

Seven years on (or last year, 2008), your credit market has crumbled so no more money to lend. Economy is floundering and globalization is threatening to outsource all jobs to China. Other governments are prospering, like communist China, largest democracy on Earth, India and your northern neighbor, Brazil as well as European Union. This is just about the best situation to be skeptical, protective and on your guard.

And that is exactly what is happening right now. If you're in the aerospace or aviation field, almost no company will hire you. In fact, so long as the job requires security clearance by the FBI (which requires a track of your files ten years back), companies most probably will not hire you. One, because it takes a long time, two because it takes a lot of paperwork, three because it takes a lot of money. Might as well hire an American to do the job. So corporations and companies that involve national security are basically very tight-fisted.

Second point, the Americans are not faring well on the economic scale. Less credit, less jobs, outsourcing to cheap labor markets and a recession basically are forcing them into a self-knit web of self sufficiency. Aliens can and must wait (Yes, that's what they call you if you're not a citizen. Non-immigrant aliens). First, get the economy back on its feet, then we'll negotiate.

That's about as bleak as it gets. Getting a job in America post-graduation is not at all easy. In fact, it could be downright impossible if it goes on like this.

However, there are other things to be cherished here if you will.

Freedom. Education is still very liberal and free. You will be exposed to a whole new degree of freedom, of expression, of style, of form, of schedule and even of contents. This, I believe is the bedrock of the renowned American innovation, which still remains at the pinnacle of its realm. Creativity cannot be taught, it is a culture. You have to experience it to get it. You'll meet people of all walks of life, who do crazy things, and will inspire you tremendously. And the most precious of all, you're allowed, even encouraged to be different here, unique they call it. That's freedom at its best! That, I believe is the beauty of American education. Freedom.

Science and technology. Need more be said.

Obama. Yes, he is a very big factor in America today, and for the next eight years, I predict. He has a lot of great plans, but one of his most inspiring factors is hope. Hope to re-energize America to become a world leader in all aspects again. Hope to build a renewable energy sector. Hope to heal a divided and bitter nation, which contributes to foreigners being treated as potential terrorists. Hope that the free world is truly full of possibilities, for even a black man can be president in a predominantly white country. Yes, hope. Not to mention history in the making.

So weigh your options, hear the pros and cons and choose what you seek out the most. Be under no illusions though, that you will be welcomed with open hands, either in this nation or in your respective industries. There is definitely skepticism in this nation towards aliens, but it's only going to get better, even more so when we start making the right moves and start winning the war on religious extremism and terrorism. The recession is killing people, but we have a great team of experts on the drawing board trying to fix it. It won't be an easy decision, and the journey will be even harder, but the light at the end of the tunnel will only get brighter and brighter. Your call.

Hindsight.

2008-12-31T21:04:00.001-08:00

2008.

Disappointment – UEC Results, Math in particular.

Loss – Friends and Singapore opportunity.

Hope – Free world.

A whole new experience – Essence of life.

Excitement - DHL

Love – Logistics & Supply Chain.

Stress – Sales Target.

Breaking free – Without academic framework, working life.

Topsy-turvy – Three shots of Flaming Lamborghini.

Friendship – Ding.

Hard ball – Nilai.

Uncertainty – To go or not to go.

Farewell – Family, BB, Ama, So hais.

Tears - Ma, Ama.

Loneliness – One, First weeks.

Family – Mum.

Tears – Mum.

Culture Shock – BIG, BIG, BIG.

Political Realization - America is not all Liberal, there are Conservatives as well.

Realization – 9/11 does make a difference.

Break up.

Victory – Obama.

Hope – Black president.

Perspective – On the war.

Paycheck – 4.0 GPA

Hard work – Basketball.

BRING IT ON!!!!!!!

MERRY 9^THYEAR OF THE SECOND MILLENIUM!!!!

Porn

2008-12-19T09:39:00.001-08:00

Y porn is bad.

1. Objectifies women.

2. Makes u lust for women, not love them.

3. Makes u gape at every woman's boobs and wonder how they would look in bed.

4. Gets an iron grip on your time and energy.

5. Makes you an addict, needing more and more each subsequent time

6. Makes you desperate – VERY DESPERATE.

7. Screws up the respect you have for woman, however much you might have.

8. Breeds friggin kinky fetishes and pedophilia (ILLEGAL AND DOWNRIGHT IMMORAL).

9. Makes you "immune" to one-partner-boring-sex as opposed to variety-at-a-click.

Y porn is acceptable.

1. Eliminates the need for prostitutes.

2. Safe sex, unless you do kinky weird stuff.

3. Eliminates the uncontrollable urge for sex in a relationship.

4. Broadens your knowledge of things out there.

That's about it.

Now weigh and decide.

25-hour day, please?

2008-12-13T20:05:00.001-08:00

Have you ever felt that you never have enough time? Now here comes the pun: EVEN during the holidays, or whenever you are relaxing or doing anything that is not work? Do you ever feel guilty for doing something just for the heck of it, just because it's fun? Ever gone through that process of having to wrestle with your conscious mind just to do something that's actually "not progressive"???

Now I may be speaking in riddles or I may be an island in my own rights, but then again, there may be people like me out there. I think we call us workaholics.

Yea. Been sleeping in too much. Been playing one hell too much basketball. Just keeping my fingers crossed that it all pays out.

It is hard

2008-12-06T21:13:00.001-08:00

Invisible man never felt like he existed. Perhaps it was because he didn't, really. People never saw him, never acknowledged him, never gave a shit when he spoke.

But he was not always invisible, no. He was visible before he started flying. He was visible when he went to other places. He was only invisible in that particular area. So he wasn't technically invisible then, was he? But he was, at least in the most important area and the area where he spent most of his time.

They thought he was strange. They thought he was outspoken. They thought he was, wait, they didn't even think he existed. In fact, they didn't even think.

So exactly how invisible was he? To shout it out loud, VERY. Cars never seemed to be quite spacious enough, even if they were made for the fattest people on Earth, when he was clearly not there yet. Rooms never had space for him, even if he was to be one and only. He never spoke, but only made noise. He was never there, ever.

Thank God he knew his worth. He knew he was unique, special even. In fact, one of the smart asses were right, for once at least.

"You know what? You're just way ahead of us, you're too good for us, you're ahead of humanity!"

He was, for he had chosen to fly in turbulent air when he could have sailed in smooth seas. He was not what the norm was. He set his own damn pace, which was a god damn speed!

He was good, too good even. Having coaxed, sugar-coated and even played diplomacy, it never seemed to work. Enough was enough. He would not give a shit any more, for there were more shits out there, better shits in fact.

Aku Bermimpi

2008-11-16T09:53:00.001-08:00

Man's worth is measured by his dreams. For what is man's accomplishments without his dreams? And if man doesn't have either, he'd better have the other.

Martin Luther King Jr

Mahatma Karamchan Gandhi

Barack Hussein Obama

毛泽东

邓小平

Dr Mahathir bin Mohammad

Lim Goh Tong

Tunku Jaafar

We can lose some battles, but We CANNOT lose the war.

2008-11-09T21:12:00.001-08:00

Big thinkers play to win, not to lose. We typically aim for the biggest goals and dreams, never settling for anything less than number one. We set the pace of the competition. We set the benchmark for standards. We are the forefront of aspirations and dreams.

However, playing to win does not guarantee you will take them all. There is still hard work, grit, determination, preparedness and sometimes even luck which are major players in the outcome of any action. This typically means that sometimes, results just reel out of our control and that's bad. For control is the essence of guiding your own path to victory.

We may trip, we may fall, we may tumble downhill and we just may knock our head hard against the wall. We may hear nothing but doubts and discouragement. We see nothing but lives fueled by fear, fear of "bo liu", fear of losing a job, fear of… We may know nothing but a long line of failures.

But despair not. Where there is a will, there is a way. Time has proven that there is yet to be something that we cannot do. We've gone to the moon, we've flown like birds, we've explored underground caves, we've made every unimaginable thing a century ago possible today. We are a people of will and determination.

Days will be rainy, roads will be bumpy. But rest assured that at the end of the rainbow, there is ALWAYS a pot of gold waiting to be claimed by she who goes the distance.

We can afford to lose some battles, wear some scars and learn some lessons. There is absolutely nothing wrong in failure or mistakes. What is crucial is that we learn from them and never ever repeat them (Hence the significance of HISTORY, but that's another post altogether). Then, stand up again and fight tomorrow's battles we must.

For what is at stake are not mere battle victories. What is at stake is the war. There is only one war we fight, and failure in this war is not an option. So cry, think, dust off your knees and elbows and stand up and fight.

The question

2008-11-09T02:08:00.001-08:00

There are times in our life when we are faced with great challenges. There are times in our life when we are faced with great doubts. There are times in our life when we face denial, right in the face. These are the times that truly measure what we are worth. These are the times when we become who we are, or more than what we are.

These moments define our lives. These moments are our make-it or break-it point. These moments will be the moments whereby we measure periods of time from, the future henceforth.

We are a people of flesh and blood. We are a people of fear, greed and denial. We, too, are a people of hopes and dreams, will and determination.

Hence, the question posed when we are faced with great and overshadowing obstacles is, "Will we live up to our dreams?"

Men of Honor

We cannot be passive observers.

2008-10-30T20:48:00.001-07:00

Have you ever looked at some great icon and wondered how they ever keep up their pace and motivation? How about marveling at the great things they do and constantly be in awe of its awesomeness? Now have you ever compared yourself to them and felt inferior? Have you ever felt compelled to just look at them and feel that you can never do anything but look?

Well then you're wrong.

Because even the greatest icons get disappointed sometimes. Even the greatest people become demotivated and tired sometimes. So it is just normal to feel really retarded and lethargic at times.

But what sets the great apart from the good is the hunger in them. It's a hunger that says that nothing is ever enough. That nothing is ever perfect. That there is something that can be improved somewhere, some screw that can be tightened somehow. After all, we are imperfect humans, aren't we?

Now it is important to acknowledge that we slip and fall, sometimes. But what matters not is whether we have fallen. What matters is that we learn from our mistakes. We can make mistakes, but we have to learn lessons from them. We can make mistakes, but we cannot repeat the same ones. We can be down sometimes, but make sure we keep our focus and get up and bouncing soon.

So while we can, and will, feel awed and inferior to other people's greatness at times, we should not be passive observers. In contrast, we should, and must, push ourselves further and harder in order to be like the someone we would like to be like. Don't just sit there and marvel and think that you'll never catch up with them, because, the fact is, you'll never get there sitting down wondering and marveling. Bottom line: GO chase for what you believe to be of the best. No one said it would be easy, they just said that the outcome would be beautiful beyond description.

Don't ever give up on a process of achieving THE goal, unless it truly becomes worthless to keep chasing. It is a constant process of improving and working hard! It won't be easy, but it will be worth it! So go get your focus together and start reaching up to the stars, if not you have but yourself to blame.

(The author is aware that this blog sucks. But you gotta write what you gotta write sometimes, which means no fluff no bullshit, just straight to the point.)

It is time

2008-10-21T13:25:00.000-07:00

What does it mean to be Malaysian? Does it mean that I’m Chinese, you’re Malay and I don’t care about what the other guy is?
What does it mean to be democratic? Does it mean that we play by the West’s standards but make up our own rules, citing multi-culturism as a darn good excuse to divide and rule?
What does it take to get the ISA and the Sedition Act repealed? How many more people must be jailed to keep the government as the government?
What does it mean to be patriotic? Raising a flag on National Day yet shouting racist slurs behind curtains?
What does it take to topple the ever-mighty, but non-functioning and even “racist” government?
What does it take to drill the fact across that Malaysians are Malaysians for a reason? We love Malaysia. We don’t belong in China. And your racist slurs and 20th century BC thoughts don’t represent the general public’s thoughts?
This boy is sick and tired of race-based stance, sectarian-centered benefits and an ever tilted economic and social scale.
This boy proposes a society where all men are equal. And no, not a society where some men are more equal than others.
This boy understands that we are brothers and sisters of this nation. This boy believes that this relationship transcends boundaries allegedly drawn up by race, religion and cultural difference.
Above all this, this boy believes that we, Malaysians have to stand united. We have years of progress, civilization, technology, education and wealth to go after. So, stop that fighting already. It’s time we picked ourselves up. It is time.

Identity

2008-09-20T00:56:00.001-07:00

First game of football occurred at the most unlikely hour. We were out on the field playing four downs with a 50 meter between end zones at 1am. The entire period of the game, campus safety patrol cars were circling the field. This was the game at which I asked the most defining question : “What’s the purpose of this game?”

Flashback

So why did I decide to come to US in the first place? Ever since forever, I’ve been caught in between two worlds. True, Chinese is my native language, my mother tongue. But since I was five, I have been going for tuition, English tuitions that is. When I enrolled in primary school at seven, I was having difficulties with Chinese! That’s true, at the young age of seven, I had already started struggling with my identity. What’s that language I have to learn? Chinese? My first language? Seriously? I disliked that language until Standard Four but finally came to terms with it due to UPSR( Standard Six Unified Exams) pressure. Nonetheless I did fairly well (an A actually) in Chinese and decided to take up the challenge of enrolling in Chong Hwa Independent High School.

The thing about independent high schools was that they had an infamous reputation for overworking their students! Their math was friggin hard and hard work was synonymous with homework! I did not give a damn about the challenge that school posed; it would merely serve as motivation, I concluded!

In a dominant Chinese society, whereby the perseverance of its cultures and mother tongue lies above all else, it was easy to be influenced into believing in the same ideology. I felt, and still feel a compelling responsibility to uphold the language and its cultures and let the river keep flowing, as it had been doing for 50 centuries already.

Come one fine day, I decided to further my studies in the United States! No, it wasn’t a spur of the moment decision. In contrast, I had to debate, argue, write and literally fight my way to get here! (YES, I’m in the US for those who are still blur blur! And no, I won’t be going home till 4 years later. Minimum!)
So I grandly left Malaysia (not for good, mind you!) with a load of my frens and family sending me off. It was not the most auspicious of days according to the Chinese calendar, being the day hell opened its gates to let the ghosts wandered out to roam earth for a month! Nonetehless, I landed in Orlando safely enough.
I checked into a hostel only on the following day, as I touched down in Orlando at night. It was my first contact with reality. EVERYTHING here was huge! Americans love trucks, which were apparent on the roads! It would do WALMART no justice to describe it as huge! Burger King was absolutely humonstrous! And not to mention the tits and bellies were gigantically big as well!!! I adapted well to the food portion here. It was practically food haven! I would tuck into the first course, second course and then dessert and then third course…. The first few days were like OMG!!!! FOOD!! Not to mention that the college cafeteria offered buffet style dinner, lunch and breakfast so I was like gaining weight faster than I could lose it! (No, basketball is not that popular on this campus as opposed to volleyball so it was not particularly that calorie burning!) By the end of the first week, I had to inhale just to pull up my pants! I was getting fatter as my daily diet consisted of potatoes, meat and burgers! And the Americans would wonder why they are the most obese nation on Earth!

I miss Asian food dearly, but I can’t get decent Asian food here. The most direct way to describe the Asian food cooked by our school cafeteria is that they serve Asian food with MASHED POTATOES! So go figure! I’ve been a meat lover all my life, but now in the States where the primary staple is meat, I’m beginning to think twice! No wonder people dig salads! The drinks are a problem too! People generally don’t carry water bottles around. And basically, the drinks served are FREE-FLOW soft drinks and free coffee! So, I’m always at a dilemma, of whether to fully utilize my meal plan that I’ve paid for already or go for a healthy diet. Lately, I’ve come to my senses and started to skip a few meals here and there, but when the food is great, I have started to eat like an American! Even my friends are shocked at my portion when I begin feasting which, fortunately, is not all that often.

Accent is another problem. Essentially, the US is a real huge land, with people who constantly cross borders for work, study or travel. And though they all speak English (duh) they speak it with a slightly different accent according to where they live. Hence, I would have thought that they have got used to the fact that people speak with accent, and hence, there is no one best accent! But the first week I was here, people constantly requested me to repeat, which was pretty frustrating, considering the fact that their remarks made me feel as if my accent was inferior to theirs, which in essence is not true. Let us not forget the course of history, from which the Americans were either deportees from the UK or sailed away for whatsoever reasons. They brought with them ships, gold, spices and of course the English language. Hence, technically speaking, the English language never belonged to them to begin with. Then they decided to change the way it’s spelt and pronounce, hence confusing everyone in the process and finally making sure that only the Americans spoke English they way they do!

A simple analogy will explain why the difference of accent( or skin color, perhaps) is completing acceptable. We all know Edison invented the light bulb. But when we buy a light bulb from Wal-Mart and use it, does it essentially belong to Edison or to us? The English invented this language, and along went the Americans who decided to change it here and there. Then, as the other nations were colonized by these two imperialism powerhouses, the language was introduced to us. And as more and more people learnt the language, it was only rational that people from different countries could communicate effectively. Hence, as we entered into the IT age, I.E. the age of communication, English became the world’s language! So when people look at me strangely, I would not hesitate to continue with my beautifully flawed accent, for theirs are very well flawed with local influence too!

Another interesting side note of how uninformed some Americans are is this: one guy once commented: you’re not even Chinese (national), you’re Malaysian. I looked at him and said with pride, “I’m a Malaysian Chinese.” What they failed to see here was the fact that after the opium war and during the Manchurian Dynasty (if I’m not mistaken) the Chinese (people from China) moved down South and again during the Red Revolution of Mao Ze Dong, the Chinese once again left China for a brighter future! So, as the saying goes, where there is sea water, there is Chinese people, of yellow skin and black hair, descendants of the dragon! One solid fact which supports this statement is the amount of aid that poured in in favor of China during the Szechuan earthquake from Chinese overseas. The amount far surpassed the aid generated domestically! And that alone speaks for itself about the number of Chinese who inhabit this world.

I’ve also come to realize that it’s not the bunch of people I mix with who have generally closed minds. It’s I who chooses to keep my mind open and do things differently from the crowd. Back in Malaysia, as it is in US, I spoke my mind and asked questions. I thought out of the box and never really cared what people thought of me. I thought people here in the US would be different from Malaysians, generally. However, what I’ve found is fairly contradictory to what I’d thought. People generally care about what others perceive of them, a lot more in the US even! Everyone is just so self-conscious that they would even fear to stray from the main crowd’s position on some issues. Issues such as its taboo to be gay and it’s not ok to criticize America. Things people wouldn’t say when they’re alone are said when they’re in groups. And I’d go as far as saying that this even impairs them from asking questions, even though they may not truly understand something. I realized that people will just be humans and let the crowd make their decisions and perceptions, often. Yet, I will not yield to that force, termed peer pressure.

One other main issue that has been buggering me since day one was that some Americans would indefinitely draw the line between “we” and “you”. These bunch of a**holes would think, by default, that they are holier than thee only because “We are Americans.” National pride and patriotism which has gone overboard into over spilling arrogance. From day one, I would no yield to this notion and stood my ground firm. I steadfastly noted due and again that I’m Asian and Malaysian Chinese. And a proud one I am indeed. I have never,to date, be afraid to call the war in Iraq what it is, a failure and the constant fact that they are getting their asses kicked by middle eastern countries due to oil. I have not failed to keep tearing away at their nationalistic arrogance by constantly upholding what I believe to be right and true as opposed to what they have been mistakenly been led to falsely believe in (that they had their asses kicked in all wars after WW2, eg. Afghanistan, Vietnam, Korea, Iraq. And also that the only reason they invaded Iraq was for oil, as opposed to the fact they cared about the people of Iraq and the world economy, hence they had to sustain THEIR own economy! BULLSHIT! ) it went so far as them asking what I’m doing here on their soil and I oh so blatantly told them that the government wants my money that’s why. In form of tax, in form of fees and in form of various expenses. That’s why the government wants me in the first place! Cause they need my and other ALIEN(as they call foreigners, and citizens are humans, ironic no?) ‘s money, that’s why!
Nevertheless, there have been great people, and of great help they have been! One guy even invited me back home as he knew I’d be spending all holidays here for the next 4 years! Hence, the moral is to not let the few rotten apples spoil the whole stack of apples! Besides, they have every right to brag! For they have the world’s top tech and science, but a bit of manners and humility never killed!

When two seemingly diverging elements converge, we will but see the sparks that fly up effortlessly. And these sparks will look great, not to mention be a great reserve to fall back on for future inspirations. When two titan cultural backgrounds intertwine, conflict will arise, but should the soul and the mind prevail, they will run parallel to each other and even combine as one.

知足者常乐

2008-08-11T13:23:00.000-07:00

It’s been almost a week of endless (not to mention mindless) hide and seek with a virus named “iqtest.exe”. Hopefully, this blog will be the mark of my victory over it! It’s quite a smart one, with me only being able to detect it after downloading some new software. But when it was found, the war had just begun! I would chase it from the C drive to the D drive and all the way to the I drive before having it shut down my computer one second before I could delete it! Talk about the art of eluding me!

This bout of hide and seek has a certain resemblance to the game we are all too familiar with. There are only two games that all humans like to play, irregardless of our ethnicity, nationality, interests, occupation or whatever it is that sets us apart! The first game is the ever present power that keeps the world revolving – money; and the other one keeps the world from splitting apart – love. And in this case of virus-busting, I was reminded of the love game!

Personally, I have a certain habit of constantly looking out for the best deal, or rather I exercise my right to choose! Hence, it is only appropriate that I have this urge to keep searching for the right girl. I don’t define what I want in a woman, because even if I find all the features that I favor in one such woman, her one bad habit might just peeve me off so much, it simply blinds me! Hence, I look out for that feel. You know, when you think of her, your face lits up with a certain innocent joy; when you hug her, you never want to let go and could literally sleep in her arms; when you look into her eyes, you see beauty beyond description and a future together.

Just in case you’re wondering, NO, this is not a mindless post about how I’ve found the RIGHT one and how much I love her.

I used to think: why settle with one woman when there could be even better girls out there? And technically, there are better woman out there, because we are never the best in this world. We could be the richest, or most popular, whereby the results can be measured in numbers. But the best? Never, only because different people have different definitions of the best and the fact that the best cannot be measured in numbers. And again, there are other better women out there, and symmetrically, there definitely better men out there too, so go figure.

The point in this argument is this: we can never be the best person, cause someone out there will definitely be better than us. So when two people who aren’t the best come together under the umbrella called love, it is inevitable that the relationship is not the best one either, technically. Two negatives don’t make a positive, that only works in Science, and specifically with electro negativity in Physics only!

Hence, I set about thinking how to make a relationship work, to put it simply! This was what my peanut brain came up with: in love, you gotta be contented.

Stop searching for the BEST one. Heck, if she feels like the RIGHT one, Nike says it best: JUST DO IT! Grab the opportunity, or rather, grab her in this case and never let go! Let it be. Go with the flow. Just stop looking for BEST woman out there and start loving the RIGHT one in front of you.

Hence pops the question, what if I find a better woman than her? Then again, you’ll have to ask yourself this rhetoric: what if she finds a better man than you? This is going to happen eventually, but what would you want her to do? Leave you for that richer, more handsome, younger or smarter guy? Rhetorical, no? Thus, you know that you should still stay by her side, cause she is the RIGHT one.

From another POV(Point of View), as time passes, the love of a RIGHT relationship will grow. And what will tag along will be affection, trust, closeness and ultimately, a bond that takes time to build. It is with this that you will battle the temptations of a seemingly better offer, that your bond will weather through this challenge as a bridge would stand the beatings of a storm. That even if she has weaknesses and flaws, that the BETTER one has only got virtues and strengths seemingly, this love and the bond will be good enough a conviction to choose the RIGHT one over the BETTER one. After all, the RIGHT one just couldn’t go wrong, could it?

In love, don’t keep looking for the best woman. For the further we search, more blinded we shall be towards the right woman, who tends to be right in front of us most of the time. Blinded by foresight? Perhaps. In love, be contented.

ALL Mine

2008-08-11T13:22:00.000-07:00

In order to be successful, the urge to succeed has to be greater than the fear of failure.

Wow! You’re studying in the States? How are you going to afford the fees?

What? You’ve only got two years’ worth of money? What about the rest?

Scholarship? You sure a? What if your results are not good?

Aerospace Engineering a? I’ve got a friend who studied that and then he changed subject, too hard wo!

Very tough one you know? You sure you can a?

Aiya, study here locally la, the decision makes a lot of sense. I’ve personally known people who did that and succeeded!

You have to be realistic, you know? No money, how to study overseas? Do it locally la!

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Somehow or other, these questions are often avoided as best as I can. Firstly, because they have been repeated so many times already. Secondly, because these questions are the exact same doubts that I have in my heart.

I do not want to listen to these questions. I strive hard to turn a deaf ear to these pressing issues. Not because I am running away from the question. On the contrary, I’m taking the bull by its horns and handling the issues head on. I’m merely doing it in a different way.

Often, when we surround ourselves with negative questions or issues, we are affected by the negativity and no good could possibly come out of it. And in this case, I am dealing more specifically with the fear of failure to complete my four year degree in US.

It is the reality of life that fuels others to remind me of my perils and continue to stoke my fears. It is the fear of failure that prompts others to continue to question my decision and actions. It is this fear that will willingly govern my life, if I let it.

I will not let the fear of failure be the focus of my life. I will not allow it to govern my life, my action, my dreams and my future!

In contrast, I will need to constantly align my life with my dreams and my desired life. I must dream, and dream big I must, for the rewards of realizing my dreams are great, much greater than the consequences of failing.

I play to win, I don’t play to not loose. I live for the fruits of success, I don’t live to avoid the fruits of failure.

I will live for my dreams, and I will fight for my dreams. I have fears too, but I will not let my fears conquer my urge to succeed. My urge to succeed will prevail; I will prevail.

Cause simply put, this is a battle for all, or nothing at all. Winner takes all, and I will be the winner.

15 Weird stuff bout me!

2008-08-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

Continuing from Pat Pat's tag (which is gone, btw, gimme the link u PAT PAT!):

15 Weird stuff bout me!

Coming from a purely Chinese education background, ma English kicks ARSE! Like I say, Chinese is my mother tongue, but English is my first language! WEEEEE!
I have a list of potential candidates for my spouse!
My room is freakin messy, but I always know where to find my stuff (max. 5 minutes then can find one la!)
I love to debate, on policies, on worldly issues, on all shits…
I do things differently from the crowd; people say one, I say two; people go China, Taiwan, Singapore, I go US.
I find playing online games a waste of time, yet I enjoy the graphics and storyline and challenge. I just can’t seem to focus on upping my level alone, life’s too short to let my mission be…. Upgrading my character’s level, in a virtual world!
I find history interesting; seeing us repeat history is one hell of a sad story, learning from yesterday is one hell of a smart move.
I believe that not believing in yourself enough and not reaching for your dreams is the saddest thing on earth.
I want to fight child pornography in the future, with our South East Asia backyard being the most rampant playground for those pedophiles!
I want to dwell into politics one day, provided I have enough financial resources to not first meddle in corruption. People get into Malaysian politics to get rich, I get into it, if I do, to govern well.
I cannot sit and do nothing. Sleeping is considered doing nothing, as I have no results to show for such an action as lying on my bed and not moving. That’s why I dun sleep.
I bought 31 comics, one week before I’m flying off to the US for a good 4 years, hoping I’ll be able to finish them! Ask me personally if I will be able to achieve this feat!
I am damn macho, some even call me rough; my favourite colour is purple and I’m wearing a pink bracelet! AMA!
I love challenges; no challenges, no do!
I do not tag people or forward mail, so this tag ends here!

Me first.

2008-07-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

专献于淑惠：

So you meet a girl (or a guy if you’re a girl or if you happen to be gay). So she’s funny. So she speaks Chinese and English, well. So she is intellectually stimulating. So she’s really really hot! So she has similar experiences and viewpoints as you. So she just about fits your list of a perfect woman! WTF do you do?

You’re about to leave, for a better opportunity and a better world. What do you do? Your destination is half way across the globe, with a time difference of 12 hours. Not too big a difference? Nope, not if you don’t consider the fact that there are only 24 hours in a day.
Basics such as talking, seeing face to face, touching (mind you, with respect!), listening and feeling are not to be taken for granted anymore. The value of such simple gestures of communication will be magnified ten folds, for you only learn to appreciate after you have lost what you have lost, no?

They say the essence of a relationship lies in sharing every detail of your life, but where do you start from when you can only call like once a week and see her through the lens of your webcam? What less is to be expected when you talk once a week, but a smile on the face; regardless of whether gastric or cramps have been your mate weeklong, or work stress and continuous harassment from idiotic friends have been the only topic in mind? How do you express that one week’s worth of sadness and worries in a half-hour conversation, at best? For logistics, how do you possibly clear a week’s worth of backlogged shipments when the customs are only open half an hour a week?

Then again, when her car breaks down, when her dog has run away, when she just needs a hearing ear or a crying shoulder, what do she? Call and wake you up as it’s three in the morning? Or snap a picture of herself crying by the roadside and send it to you, in hope you’ll understand? The excitement of the Golden Goal can only be felt if you’re right there in the stadium. The eclectic crowd, the soaring headlamps and the jubilant fans – PRICELESS yet indescribable. Been there, done that, they say; but what when you ain’t there?

What when you just dig older chicks, who’ve been through a lot and dun fret over ciku issues? You’re going through the third phase of life – college, she’s fighting to build her career. When you enter the same phase as her, a minimum of three years later, you are all coiled to launch your career, so you’re on par with her, no? No, cause she’ll be looking at marriage then. Now, you can’t possibly buy a house, a vehicle (land or air, hmm, dwell there later), go on honeymoon and build a family on credit debts now, can you?

Best of all, what if she finds a better man here? (Not that you think that there’s another man better than you, but it’s her perception that matters, not yours, no? She wait for an unpolished star in the sky, or she take the gleaming diamond there on the floor?

What was the question again? Oh. WTF do you do?

You put her name on a list. Schindler had his list, the dean has a list, so you can also keep a list. It’s a list that will not be active for many years, but when the moment comes, and if she ain’t taken yet (not because she ain’t good, but cause the other men are blind, much to your delight!), you DO something about it. But for the moment, spoil not what you have high hopes for. For if Murphy is right, if something should happen, it will. After all, an unfulfilled promise is much more promising than a broken one, no?

BTW, I LOVE YOU.
AMA!

joy, OVERRATED.

2008-07-25T11:53:00.000-07:00

Smile, greet, shake hands, be warm…. That is one mask for the morning and for the sociable community to see. But, when doors are closed and drapes are drawn, the facial muscles no longer twitch. The curve of the lips upwards is no more. It actually takes an effort to smile and for the eyes to glitter. But put aside the pretentiousness and energy and return to the natural state of being, which way do the lips curve? Up, down or remain a tight, wry line?

The state of tiredness remains constant. Perhaps, the heart feels burdened by the world’s wars, assassinations and economic status. Perhaps, the lifestyle of an owl should remain that of an owl, not to be imitated by any other beings, not least the weakest of all beings, the homos. Why so, if it is so natural to feel tired, as is evident among the passengers of the morning train and evening bus, is it looked up upon that we must be energetic and full of the will and motivation to go? Ain’t it true that too much shit weighs down on our shoulders? Ain’t it true that without money, you save and look for it constantly; but when you got cash, you seek to safeguard and invest it. This life is just too friggin’ hard, so why does society make it harder by expecting us to be not who we be? We’re tired, that’s why caffeine reigns! So why must we still show an outward expression which totally opposes our inner feelings?

The state of emo-ness leaves me more grounded. I know not any other feeling that feels more like home. The funny joke doesn’t make me laugh the whole night. That wonderful shopping trip doesn’t give me the satisfaction the whole week. The great sales further enhances my fatigue. I am but more comfortable with the melancholic Evanescence or screaming Eminem. I am in a constant state of fatigue, due to financial, political, work and social issues, but mostly because of the constant battle of mind and body. The body demands rest, but the mind wants to go another mile, read another book, write another post, type another e-mail……

Somehow, the constant quest for the ultimate goal saps me of every sliver of energy, be it my sales target, my community work or my education pursues, so why does the same society that took so much from me request even more of me, that I am to feel as bright and as eager as the sun?

I am in a constant mood of feeling that I have under-achieved. I have but one year of school fees; so I’ll work and study hard. I am number one in class; my class is the third class in that form. I have been a sergeant longer than a private; I am not the highest number of awards achiever. I am not satisfied. In fact, I will never be, I guess. The heart of the eagle in my hand was only captured after months of pursuit, but the sparrow above my head looks way more enticing, all because I haven’t got it yet. So how could I possibly smile and relax? Not a moment is to be lost, lest I rest on my laurels and flab gathers around my waist.

But the way you behave and think somehow shapes your features… So screw my features. I do not care if my hair is not combed when I step out, for I have better things to worry about. I doubt E=mc2 would exist if Einstein had greased his hair every time he went to his lab. So I do not clean my room; I know where my stuff is and I can navigate through my stuff. So I talk fast and snap when I think your ideas are dumb; my time on earth is short and I ain’t got patience to wait for you to catch up.

Laughter is the best medicine… Please, laugh and AIDS won’t attack you. Laugh and you can smoke as much as you want without worrying about lung cancer. Just laugh!

I am but human, and that means a multitude of things. I am a part of the human society, hence I am obligated to conform to the norm of society. But then again, I am an individual being, for should my heart stop, your heart cannot possibly pump for me. I cannot kill and expect my mother to be hung for me. I am I, ME and MYSELF. Hence, don’t tell me which way my lips should curve, lest you are willing to pay my bills, face my shit and shoulder my weight.

THE SAME JOKE AIN’T FUNNY TWICE

2008-06-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

Remember the fat guy in class? How everyone calls him “fatty” and laughs? How he jokes along as if he truly enjoyed the joke as well? How every single joke aimed at his vertical dimension served to pierce through his contrastingly weak and flimsy self-esteem? We are all guilty of this sin somehow, of poking where it hurts, knowingly or unknowingly. Sinful as it is, we kept doing it, again and again. Why? For the simple reason that it seemed funny, BACK THEN.

Funny, isn’t it? How the joke suddenly becomes less funny when you’re on the receiving end? How it even changes into downright degrading and painful when the joke is repeated due and again to the joy of the joker. All this joy at the “fat guy’s” expense.

We are but mere mortals, susceptible to monotonous repetition of the same tricks that worked in the past. So forgive us when we constantly repeat the same action, hoping for the same, if not a better result. Blame us not when we become oblivious to the fact that the fat guy expressed much discomfort and passive objection, yet to no avail.

Well then, if we blame the joker not, do we put the brunt of responsibility on the guy for being overweight beyond his conscious control? Do we punish him for something he has no say over by heaping on a constant stream of blunt reminders? Blame we him for our incessant need to irritate and make a fool of others, all for the noble sake of entertaining the crowd or merely to promote ourselves relatively higher by pushing him into the ground lower than he already is?

NO.

We say that to the light-hearted chap who sees light in every issue; apologies, the chap who sees light every issue. The perseverance in him ought to be praise worthy had it not been the motivating factor behind the very act significant of the constant joker: character-assassination, demotivation and rude, blunt remarks.

NO.

We say that to the joker to block out the mental burden he heaves upon us for some trait or habit we have no control over or that we care not to change. We are who we are, and if he can’t accept it, he can very well go and FUCK HIMSELF with his sick, monotonous and downright unthoughtful jokes.

REMEMBER, when we say enough, it means enough. Man or woman alike, when we draw that fine line that you are not supposed to cross, you obey. You do not constantly challenge and hope to project yourself as the hero of the day with your dumb-cracks.

I eat a lot, and that’s what makes me confident of smashing you into pulp if my emotions ever speak louder than my thoughts. I speak better English than Chinese, and that’s something to be proud of; given the current situation of a western-dominated world and a slow Chinese upcoming, only to overtake the US in a minimum of 15 years. He used to borrow money; that don’t mean he still owes you money NOW.

Repeat not your jokes, especially mean ones. Know that the slip of your tongue could very well slip you and finish you off one day. More importantly, know when to

SHUT UP! We are bombarded by a tyriad of information DAILY; don’t let us be surrounded by your unmeaningful small talk and constant entertaining anymore.

Jokes are funny until they are told a few times, and they cease to entertain when they hit on the very features man used jokes to cover: rage, incompetence etc. Let us learn to joke, but more importantly, let us learn when not to joke.

Beauty and the BEAST(dead in memories)

2008-06-23T10:21:00.000-07:00

Browsing through Facebook, you just get the feeling that some people are just blessed with everything, no? Looks, brains and the perfect body cut. Makes you wonder if God loves them more….

Put the credit on their parents' genes and fore-planning? Or thank mine for giving me the randomness of an uncharted map, whereby everyday and every step is yet another adventure in its own right?

The experience of just looking at the pictures of the ones I once crossed path with simply leaves me with a concoction of feelings at times. This emotional cocktail could very well contain amazement, envy and a tinge of gladness at different times.

Amazement is justified by the very wonders being caught on film, or digital encoding in today’s terms. All the corners of the world are they in, but seldom do they stand near to you. In simple lay-men’s term, the very variety of each and every one’s experience never fails to amuse.

Envy for they are treading on grounds only my wildest dreams can bring me to. Names of institutions heard of a long time ago, but never too vivid an image for the mist of reality simply blurs my vision.

Gladness for the smile on their faces shows utmost happiness, even a certain nirvana. How do you know you’re in love? Compare the photos you take with your friends with the ones you take with THE special one, and hey presto!

Slipping out of the scene and attempting to melt into the shadows is merely a release of a wild bird from its cage – it was never meant to be. At least now, the smile radiates warmth and sheer pleasure.

Hey YOU,

You look gorgeous! You know that right?

One Way Ticket to S&G

2008-05-31T10:57:00.000-07:00

Tell us about an experience which, at the time, really felt like "the end of the world" -- but had it not happened, you would not be who you are today. Describe the process through which you discovered value in the negative.

Mom and I were serenely reading in the living room. She casually put down the papers and blurted,

“The fortune-teller predicted that I will die in a few years.” Her tone was as casual as if it was no issue.

“How…” I was dumbfounded.

“Why? Afraid I will die soon? At the rate you throw your tantrums at me, you bury me instantly!” Mom was definitely worked up by my nonsense thus far.

My biological father left Mom for good when I was shaping up in the womb. Hence I grew up only knowing of Mom’s love. “When she is gone, I will be alone in this world!” That thought raced across my mind. My heart crushed.

I come from a Chinese family that is buried in superstitions. Mom’s fortune teller had never erred in his predictions. He even convinced her not to abort me as I’d turn out fine; she had consulted him ever since. Therefore, Mom’s calm appearance didn’t fool me into believing that she wouldn’t take this prediction to heart.

Somehow, Mom’s conviction and my superstitious background led me to fully digest the predictions. My mind went blank and my voice was caught in my throat.

I couldn’t sleep that night. My mood was dampened. I questioned myself on all that she had showered upon me. Rummaging my memory for the answer, I couldn’t find any. “Mom is dieing soon!” That thought shattered my heart. I could neither accept nor contain it.

I had won accolades throughout school, gaining respect from peers and teachers alike. But in the eyes of Mom, what had I made myself to be? I had honed my debating skills through endless bouts of arguments with Mom; I had once even attempted to kick her in retaliation for caning me, thank God I failed; I had accustomed myself to giving orders so much that I had even ordered Mom around!

Tears rolled down my cheeks. While my tears of realization had just started to flow, the precious moments of Mom’s life was drawing near. It was too late!

I had always been basking in the warmth of Mom’s love and sacrifices. Yet, I had repaid her with nothing but sheer arrogance, flaring temper and wounding words. It had taken just a fraction of a second to unleash my temper and strike out at her, yet it had taken seventeen years before I realized that I had been stabbing and ripping her heart out all this while! The brunt of the realization came down on me hard, in the form of wailing and tears. Mom was actually going to die, without my apologies and un-doings.

I was completely devastated and torn. It felt like the end of the world.

If I told you I’ve totally changed over a new leaf and our relationship is perfect now, it is but a lie. I’ve changed little by little and there is still room for improvement. Besides, I don’t want a perfect relationship; all I want is more time to share and treasure these precious moments together.

Only when we’re about to loose something do we appreciate its values. I now allocate more time with her instead of with my friends. Even if I just mope around doing nothing, her presence around is worth it. I did not like her nagging, but I have learnt that it could only mean that Mom is alive and around to love and care for me! I have come to understand that it is better to love and obey her now than to publish obituaries and moan my heart out after her passing away. While the light of her presence beams brightly, I grasp every opportunity there is to know who Mom truly is. I am no longer afraid of what is in store, but rather of what she had concealed.

Mum’s predicted departure had successfully put our lives under the microscope. I was confronted by my misdeeds and wrongdoings unto her. In contrast, Mom’s forgiving and love prevailed. How could I possibly continue to misbehave and mistreat her? There was no other option but to repent and love her with all my heart in return!

In confronting the possibility of losing Mom, the overwhelming emotion was guilt, guilt from actions of the past. However, I understood that there was no possible way I could turn the clock back. From now on, what I want is to do my best for Mom. She has had more than her fair share of thunderstorms and blizzard; she definitely deserves the best I have to offer her!

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Obviously this wasn't worth that ticket, but I'll be back.

When HIS name rings the loudest

2008-05-31T09:46:00.000-07:00

Knock knock

“Can I come in?”

Ignorance.

Knock knock

“Can I come in?”

Indifference.

Knock knock

“Can I come in?”

Annoyance.

Knock knock

“Can I come in?”

FUCK OFF!

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“Please, knock on the door. O why hasn’t He knocked yet?”

Knock knock

“Can I come in?”

“FINALLY! Come in, O my God.”

Door opens and host embraces the Visitor, letting out all bottled up fury and rage and anxiety and uncertainty and emotions.

“Dear God, what have I done?”

The Visitor brings with his presence calm and peace and understanding.

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Few moments later, after the calm and peace have set in, the host phases the Visitor out, gradually but surely. However, the Visitor is a persistent one; as such the cycle repeats itself, again and again……

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AM I THE HOST? Only opening the door at a funeral, at a near brush with death, at times of trial and turmoil?

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The MIT Admission Essay resembled a one way ticket to success and glory. It also reflected a substantial chip of writer’s block and the rust of thoughts that further strengthened that block. Topic: Tell us about an experience which, at the time, really felt like "the end of the world" -- but had it not happened, you would not be who you are today. Describe the process through which you discovered value in the negative.

I found my true worth in that writing process, and how much could I have been sold off for? Barely a cent.

This man dropped tears, thinking how his mum could just die tomorrow without him having expressed his love for her, rightfully through his actions, daily.

The Visitor was sought out this once.

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The funeral of my old time (Officer-in-the-Boy’s-Brigade-Service)’s mother brought me back to earth ~ noch ein mal. What if that had been my mum? What if I am the one in white, accepting condolences? WHAT IF……….

The Visitor was let in through the door ~ noch ein mal.

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“I heard that JW is dead.” – ST, phone call

“WST was only 18 years old, and WST is not a believer, not yet.” – JW + deduction

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“I BELIEVE THAT HE’LL BE BACK REALLY SOON. IN 10 YEARS OR LESS…” – JW, PORT DICKSON BEACH, after the haircut

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When the possibility of my death is as real as my friend’s passing away; when He promises to come back, sooner than later; when my Mum still does not believe, and I often still shout at her, and she ages day after day, complaining about the pain here and there; the Visitor is let in and treated with utmost care and respect.

I am the host, just like a lot of everyone else. THANK GOD for the Visitor.

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Reference:

German
Revelations, the Bible
MIT Essay

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*A re-read is recommended.*

Upcoming Posts

2008-05-31T09:35:00.000-07:00

Finally, it's all coming out like the Niagara falls:
1. I should blog as a tool to improve my writing skills. Grammar, structure etc.
2. Upcoming posts:

procrastination>>翻贱

when and why an overseas education is more worth it.

ex-es
when HIS name rings the loudest
my dream
joy,OVERRATED.
Transcending borders through storytelling
Shark fins? I'll pass.