It's official, I'm a loner. Took me 20 years to figure that out. No this is not a pitiful post directed at garnering sympathy. It's official, since I just realized it.
I work most efficiently when I am alone. I was once at a Boeing career seminar about how to get hired at Boeing and this guy asked: "So how many of you like to work alone?" I proudly raised ma hands and he shot it down pretty quickly. "This is one of the questions that you don't answer honestly even if you are!" I did not give a shit, but I was pretty surprised about ma answer too.
In engineering teams, I could tolerate quite a lot, but I always had a slight frustration and impatience for people who weren't quite as self-motivational and quick to pick up. I know, you can only go so far alone, but going there with a bunch of slower folks ain't exactly getting you anywhere far either, no.
Then again, I realize that I work well with people who are fast, smart and better than I am. Once they have proven themselves to be as good as, if not better, than me, I will follow and cooperate. But before that, mediocrity is very much a blunder to smooth and frictionless cooperation. I worked well with the 3 sergeants in command. I worked well with Freddie, who showed me the ropes to diplomacy. I worked well with Monica in the Math conference. They were stellar folks with meritious skills.
Indeed, I am also very much a non-supporter of small talk and fooling around. I am not at all interested in talk that is just too aunty and frivolous. I am capable of small talk, but find it just too much a waste of time and very uninteresting. But then again, they say that's how human relationships are built, by focusing on the small details in life. Well, that's where I fail I guess. Cause I don't give a shit about small things in life, like the friends I could be missing with the lack of attention given to small talk and all that crap. Couldn't be bothered much. It's lonely sometimes, yea, but I just can't be bothered. Unless she/he is worth my time and attention. Then again, I ain't worth their time too, that's why they also dun give a shit about making small talk with me. Ha.
So yea, I'm a loner, when all else are not up to par, I guess.
4 comments:
as loner, they demand people to be as smart as they can. but loner didn't lead people to be smart.
as leader, they inspire others so that others CAN be as smart as they can.
Just give people what you think YOU would appreciate yourself. Give and take. No give no take. :p
U sound like u're a loner when it comes to serious stuff. U didn't seem like one in Chong Hwa. Hmm.. USA changed u. :)
Creative people tend to love solitude and there's nothing wrong in it. So long as one does not deny the existence of a world away from his/her work, it's nothing dysfunctional. The best part of your post is that you have (officially!) come to know about this :)
Nanda
http://ramblingnanda.blogspot.com
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